Not doing too good.
3 months ago
Hey guys, just wanted to take this time to get something off my chest. As I’m sure a lot of you probably know, our “President” Donald Trump has announced on his Truth social, addressing the former President of Russia, who has been egging Trump on over the deadline to ceasefire with Ukraine. Trump said he ordered two “Nuclear Submarines” near Russia in response to the quip make by the former Russian president.
Basically, toying with instigating nuclear war with Russia. This news has really gotten me super worried, so much so that I am barely able to keep any food down, or even be awake during the daytime, with sleep being the only time I feel at peace. I am not doing well at all. I don’t think I have been more scared than I am right now. Nearly every minute of my waking time has been worried about shit going south and our president plunging us headfirst into Nuclear War over a social media post.
I hope beyond hope that nothing will come of this, that Trump will TACO once again and that this can all be averted. Even he, in his addled state of mind would know better than to risk all out Nuclear War and Mutually Assured Destruction. Certainly, wouldn’t be good for his grifting/business enterprise. I dunno. I just don’t know, all I know is that I don’t want to die like that and i don’t know how much more of this I can take, its been so bad that I have even contemplated suicide of all things. I don’t want it to come to that, I’m terrified and I don’t know what to do. :’(
Basically, toying with instigating nuclear war with Russia. This news has really gotten me super worried, so much so that I am barely able to keep any food down, or even be awake during the daytime, with sleep being the only time I feel at peace. I am not doing well at all. I don’t think I have been more scared than I am right now. Nearly every minute of my waking time has been worried about shit going south and our president plunging us headfirst into Nuclear War over a social media post.
I hope beyond hope that nothing will come of this, that Trump will TACO once again and that this can all be averted. Even he, in his addled state of mind would know better than to risk all out Nuclear War and Mutually Assured Destruction. Certainly, wouldn’t be good for his grifting/business enterprise. I dunno. I just don’t know, all I know is that I don’t want to die like that and i don’t know how much more of this I can take, its been so bad that I have even contemplated suicide of all things. I don’t want it to come to that, I’m terrified and I don’t know what to do. :’(
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Congress has let him get away with a lot, but the isolationists he keeps appealing to don't want us pulled into another war. He was put in place by a lot of very wealthy people who do not want a nuclear war, either. He's freaking out about Epstein Files and looking to distract us all again. It's just more hot air and posturing.
Please don't do anything drastic that will cause your friends and family more hardship in these trying times; be with them to deal with things as they come, together (spoken from experience).
You can call or text 988 any time to talk to someone who can help talk you through these feelings.
I doubt Trump would actually order a nuclear strike - he's first and foremost a businessman, and him giving that order (that I doubt would be carried out anyway, he might have surrounded himself with sycophants but I do not doubt for a moment they'd turn on him if he were to do something that stupid) would, for reasons I hope are obvious, be VERY bad for business.
Rule of Acquisition 125 - You can't make a deal if you're dead.
But seriously, my love of all things Ferengi aside, you really shouldn't let the fear of what COULD happen interfere with your life. Yes, it's worrying, but he's not the first person in a position of power to threaten to launch nukes, and he likely won't be the last. If the world can survive the Cold War and North Korea, I think it can survive a jumped-up reality TV star who is desperate to draw attention away from the fact that he (and plenty of other powerful people) may have paid a visit to a certain island.
If you've been having suicidal thoughts, PLEASE seek help. I do not know the names or numbers of the American organisations, but there ARE people who will listen and who can help you, not to mention family and friends.
Sure, he's technically the guy at the top in the US - but above all else he is a coward and a puppet of other, richer and more powerful people. The same goes for just about every boot-licker under him. They would not want a nuclear war, because they would not only not benefit from it directly, but they would at best have to live in a bunker (where their money is worthless) and at worst roast in an inferno.
Even if he could somehow get through every single safeguard that would prevent him from pushing the big red button - which I sincerely doubt - I don't think the people under his employ would let him do it. The US military wouldn't want to start a nuclear exchange. Russia wouldn't want to, for all their posturing and blowing of hot air. The rich people Trump wants to so eagerly impress wouldn't want it happening. I'm sure they'd off him before risking to die in a nuclear blast themselves.
It's completely understandable that you would feel this way, though. America and the world at large feels as if it is in a downward spiral, and to some degree it certainly is, but I don't think the most selfish scum the Earth has to offer would risk killing themselves like this. Trump and Putin and their people all want power and to stay in control more than anything; and if they play their one big card (especially for Putin), nuclear weapons, they not only lose the biggest bid for that but probably everything else, too.
Putin and Trump will go away, eventually. Trump has 3 more years. Putin has until he quits or becomes too much of a bother for the wrong people. Suicide would be a permanent solution to a very temporary problem, and I sincerely hope you are seeking help to feel better.