from time to time i'll spend an inordinate amount of time writing a long journal post only to just not post it. but maybe i can try to use this .. as a journal?

this year i've been revisiting traditional art a little more, first using copics/alcohol markers for the first time and now watercolours (thnx to  fredfredericks) . i grew up on making traditional art, basic pencils and colouring pencils and pens ; i love the practicality of physically creating something, appreciating a process and having something to show for it, it's something id encourage anyone to explore given the opportunity. it helps set foundational groundwork and context for digital art too ; the 'undo' button is way too powerful. Working traditionally is a lot more therapeutic and peaceful than digital and you just gotta be ok with the mistakes. it's something i'd love to spend more time doing and i'm gonna try to find ways to mix it in with my process in more pieces.

although at times i feel like i've bitten off more than i can chew, giving myself a project to work on has been a fantastic motivator for me.. creatively, it took me so long to 'find my voice' and now i just wanna yell ; all i want to do is make stuff, it's all i have to express myself , and i've spent so long NOT making stuff .. it's probably best that i have to work a 'job' JOB, as much as i hate it and as much as it holds me back, in some ways it keeps me grounded and keeps me from burning myself out. if i was left to my own devices i'd fuck everything off and just draw and draw and draw .

i feel like i should do another paragraph to close out my thoughts but i got nothin and i gotta sleep but pretend i wrote something really thought provoking here, something that made you feel a fire inside yourself , bright enough for you to grab something to draw with .. and something to draw on.. and just make some stuff. and then when you're done, make something else.