I haven’t done a new journal in a long, long while… not since my mom died… I recently had an argument with one of my best friends, I won’t say whom so I’m not accused of naming names, but it was to bad, I became suicidal and took about 20 pills… I think I wanted to hurt him more than I wanted to hurt myself, but that doesn’t change what I tried to do to myself. Thankfully, I just got very sick. I’ve been in contact with a therapist since then, but my depression over the situation has been coming in waves… I thought I was over it, but it keeps coming and going… I just need some good vibes. I’ve been really really low over it the last few days and worried I might try something again… not saying I will, it’s just hard… thanks for everyone who cares.