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Still healing, but almost there
8 months ago
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I want to apologize to folks for being offline so much the past couple of months.
My nerve issue was apparently a lot more complex than I originally thought, which has delayed my healing significantly,
As a result, my time doing anything on the computer has been severely limited, to say the least ><
I will unfortunately have to continue to avoid typing, and using phone apps until this heals fully. I've thought I was over this several times already, but have continued to relapse whenever I do too much of....anything really. I probably shouldn't even be typing this, but I want people to know what has been going on, and that I'm still here, and that I still haven't forgotten the commissions I owe. In fact, I've been quietly working on them here and there, when things feel stable enough to put in half an hour or an hour of drawing/painting. I feel guilty for not communicating more with people, since I'm usually on the ball, and kinda feel like a failure for a lot of things, even though I've been doing my best :/ That's a me thing. I think people have been.... thankfully really understanding, but internally, I've got a lot of imposter syndrome and self-blame going on.
I've been avoiding telegram, but I know I have some messages there. I'll check them when I feel better.
Losing use of my dominant arm has been anxiety/depression triggering as it is, and I've been dealing with some other stuff regarding horrible people, and selling the house.... that I'm not going to get into, because I shouldn't be on the computer typing this anyway.... but I felt like I needed to update on this in a place that isn't social media where people might just scroll through a sea of posts and miss it >>' with telegram, I feel too pressured to talk to people, and easily get sucked into typing a lot and feeling like I need to write long paragraphs to justify myself to people >>' which is very bad for me right now, on multiple levels.
The good news: after weeks of PT (stretching, nerve flossing exercises) working on my back, my posture, and resting so much that I'm going insane- I finally got a wrist brace the other day (that mostly fits my super tiny wrists) and I've been wearing it for almost 48 hours straight at this point. It's all making a difference. I am healing, This issue has bounced from my elbow, to my shoulder, to my neck, and my wrist, causing numbness, tingling, and pain, but now seems isolated to my wrist.
I can't say when things will be fully healed. I do know things are getting better. I love art, I love bringing people's characters and stories to life. These past couple of months have been miserable, but I'm healing. I will heal, and I will complete the small handful of commissions that I need to finish, and continue growing as an artist.
If I have disappointed anyone, I'm sorry. Please know I'm doing my best to heal and get my life (art, that's my life) moving again.
Thank you for your interest and support in my art over the years <3
My nerve issue was apparently a lot more complex than I originally thought, which has delayed my healing significantly,
As a result, my time doing anything on the computer has been severely limited, to say the least ><
I will unfortunately have to continue to avoid typing, and using phone apps until this heals fully. I've thought I was over this several times already, but have continued to relapse whenever I do too much of....anything really. I probably shouldn't even be typing this, but I want people to know what has been going on, and that I'm still here, and that I still haven't forgotten the commissions I owe. In fact, I've been quietly working on them here and there, when things feel stable enough to put in half an hour or an hour of drawing/painting. I feel guilty for not communicating more with people, since I'm usually on the ball, and kinda feel like a failure for a lot of things, even though I've been doing my best :/ That's a me thing. I think people have been.... thankfully really understanding, but internally, I've got a lot of imposter syndrome and self-blame going on.
I've been avoiding telegram, but I know I have some messages there. I'll check them when I feel better.
Losing use of my dominant arm has been anxiety/depression triggering as it is, and I've been dealing with some other stuff regarding horrible people, and selling the house.... that I'm not going to get into, because I shouldn't be on the computer typing this anyway.... but I felt like I needed to update on this in a place that isn't social media where people might just scroll through a sea of posts and miss it >>' with telegram, I feel too pressured to talk to people, and easily get sucked into typing a lot and feeling like I need to write long paragraphs to justify myself to people >>' which is very bad for me right now, on multiple levels.
The good news: after weeks of PT (stretching, nerve flossing exercises) working on my back, my posture, and resting so much that I'm going insane- I finally got a wrist brace the other day (that mostly fits my super tiny wrists) and I've been wearing it for almost 48 hours straight at this point. It's all making a difference. I am healing, This issue has bounced from my elbow, to my shoulder, to my neck, and my wrist, causing numbness, tingling, and pain, but now seems isolated to my wrist.
I can't say when things will be fully healed. I do know things are getting better. I love art, I love bringing people's characters and stories to life. These past couple of months have been miserable, but I'm healing. I will heal, and I will complete the small handful of commissions that I need to finish, and continue growing as an artist.
If I have disappointed anyone, I'm sorry. Please know I'm doing my best to heal and get my life (art, that's my life) moving again.
Thank you for your interest and support in my art over the years <3
