Alright friends, or whoever ends up reading these. I gotta talk about something I can't keep bottled up anymore.

I seem to be losing my job later this week. So, a bit of background, I work a family business. Good news, easy to get into a family business. Bad news, the main reason I'm in is retiring this week and I may not be able to keep the job I currently have because of that. It's my mom, she's moving out to an easier home. Good for her. Of course I gotta help move furniture, but that's the norm. Anywho, my uncle runs the whole business at the moment, but he's looking to sell it in the future, not in a cynical cash grabby way, but in a "The business is kind faltering after 60 years or so of running and all the top brass aged out already anyway" sort of way. So uhh, yeah. Bad news again, job market is kind of.... non-existant. Like, I'd be more likely to believe a unicorn is on my front lawn playing guitar for a sudden David Bowie concert than believe any given company or store is hiring. So current employment prospects look grim at best.

So the next part, a small bit of good news in the middle of all this negativity. I may be able to keep some level of employment for a little while after this week through a little project. How long it will last? Can't say. It's just some boring organization stuff, but it's something. After that though.... that's where problems begin. I mean, not exactly super big right there, I got a savings of sorts, I live with my bro who has a good job (and has said he'd gladly put in a good for me there), but even then I can't entirely rely on that forever. I gotta get SOMETHING, even if not for the money, at least for the psychology. Oh yeah sure, we'd all love to just be home playing video games and looking at furry porn all day, but being stuck in one place with not a whole lot going on for extended periods of time, that fucks you up man.

So anyway, where do I go from here? Like, let's say this project ends before I get a new job, then what? Do I double down on streaming? Perhaps? I dunno. I actually feel like I'm making a modicum of progress right now. Got a few good streams in, occassional chat with some good buds. Things seem... decent. Not big, and certainly not stable, absolutely not ready to be anything more than a silly hobby, let alone a side-hustle. So do I keep looking for work? Kind of have to, even if it's constantly revealed that ghost jobs are a majority of openings these days. Sure, I say that and immediately get sad, but what else can I do? Try something new and radical that could change everything? Like what? No seriously, I'm open to suggestions, I kind of don't know where to go from here.