When I first looked back on my posts as Alex, when I first came into the fandom, I was really upset. It was because I completely sexualised myself and pretending to be a dom wolf 24/7 whereas I'm only like that 50% of the time. That is why i considered retiring him. I totally get why I broke down now. I just couldn't comprehend being like that. Nowadays, it is nice to share my thoughts without judgement and openly be myself. It is a good time.