It looks like the reason why I cleared my channel of members a few months ago was because I hated myself, from looking back on the past as Alex and seeing all those posts on Furaffinity I made. It was a harrowing experience of the person I used to be and made me really scared. Now, I'm happily living in the current moment, with so much life around me, I am enjoying posting on my channel and enjoying life. Hope everyone is OK.