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HEALTH SITUATION [UPDATE]
a month ago
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Well, I saw a doctor. It was a miracle I managed to snag a spot at the institute, and it lifted a significant weight off my mind. They told me no surgery was necessary, and what's more, none of the tests showed anything that would require treatment from a cardiologist.
The symptoms were frightening and sometimes painful, and the panic attacks during the most severe attacks indicate that it's psychological in nature, since even with the terrible tremors, my heartbeat is normal, and the tightness in my chest and arm is coming from my nervous system.
Long story short, when a bomb struck nearby—the kind I hadn't heard since the traumatic event and subsequent development of PTSD, which happened in early 2022—my brain went into overdrive and triggered a heartbeat that simply won't stop due to a lack of awareness that the threat is over. I was told the only option is to trick my brain with the pills the psychiatrist prescribed, so I'm making an appointment with a doctor tomorrow, and I hope the problem will be resolved soon, because the constant feeling of stress is draining me so much that I can't even draw at a normal pace.
What am I getting at? I'm not going to die anytime soon and will likely live for a long time without complications, and the feeling of impending death on the verge of losing consciousness is a panic attack, something I've simply never experienced.
I was also told that the first thing I need to do is get some sleep, which is a real challenge with prolonged insomnia, so I'll likely spend the next two days in bed, after which I'll return to commissions.
I think I'll be writing more about my condition here if anything changes, but I'd like to thank each and every one of you again for your support. I didn't expect PTSD to have such a side effect, and I especially didn't expect it to last nine days with increasing effects, but I'm truly glad my heart condition didn't turn into something more serious.
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A few years ago when my grandfather died it affected me in such a deep, psychological way that every time I felt something in my chest or my left arm, I would think something bad is happening to my heart. It got so bad that one day after getting out of the shower, I collapsed to the floor thinking I was having a heart attack. I called the emergency number and it took the person on the phone to explain to me that because I wasn't having a particular symptom, it wasn't what I thought.
I visited a doctor who explained that panic attacks can feel so "real" even though it is psychological. Which seems to be similar to your situation. Just wanted to comment this, so you know that it is truly very possible to happen. Our brains can really mess with us that bad. But, glad that it is not a more serious, physical illness! ❤️❤️
I'm so sorry you went through this. I've lost loved ones, but I remember practically nothing from that period—I guess my psyche was just trying to protect itself, and the last thing I expected was for PTSD to do such a somersault. It's so strange, well, being completely healthy, to lie in bed and feel like you're dying, ha-ha. :'))
Luckily, I'm now forewarned and will be contacting a psychiatrist directly. Thank you for sharing your experience! I'll keep in mind that the body can do even worse things. qwq
wear yourself out with PHYSICAL LABOR! *background explosion for dramatic effect!*