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a week ago
Happy Halloween! Spooky time of the year is here. And it was pretty nice. I dressed up as Zorro, and my friends seemed to like it. Even got some attention from the ladies. I was even in this costume contest and I got three of them to vote me as the best. For once I don’t feel completely invisible. I also haven’t dressed up for Halloween in a long time. Year after year I would talk about how next year I’m going to do it. And it never comes. Well, now it did!
But now that all the fun is done, I need to talk about how things have been going. Well, I’m not sure how much more I can take. I haven't made much progress in my art lately. I still feel stuck in that rut. My grades have been falling, and I'm in my last year of college. I still haven't been able to find love. I recently tried asking someone from my school out to homecoming. She claimed she wasn't going, but once I was there, lo and behold, there she was. And I was just trying to reach out to someone. So I'm going to try and find someone else. I'm sick and tired of people telling me that you gotta wait for the right person, or to love yourself before you can love others. I'm done waiting. I've tried to better myself when it comes to making friends, and luckily, I feel I've improved. While not perfect yet, I feel my ability to make friendships is fine and optimal. I'm ready to level up, and I'm tired of being endlessly sidetracked for several years now. I'm tired of being 22, unloved and unfucked.
Now what about drawing? Well, to be honest, it's been a while since I legitimately enjoyed drawing. Lately I feel like I've just been drawing to meet a monthly quota. I think I need a break from it. To get things straightened out.
I'm probably going to take a break from my regular drawing, and even my story writing, until I can get things back to normal, and back on track.
Because as it stands, endlessly posting on here isn't gonna get me any closer to my relationship satisfaction in real life. This fandom is keeping me down. I might just leave it altogether. But that's just an idea, and it'd require me to burn a lot of what I once was. I don't want to see any more of my prime years of my life drowned by this sinkhole.
Despite this, I have a plan. And it's a plan I've been ruminating on for an entire year. If you are familiar with birdwatcher circles, you'll know that there is this challenge to identify or photograph as many birds as possible within the span of a year, and this is known as 'the big year'. I want to do something similar. What I will do, starting January 1, is draw as many birds I can as possible in a year. Not saying I'm gonna do one every day, but I'll try to do as many as I can in 2026, even if I skip a day or do multiple in one day.
The catch? I'm gonna draw them all extra fat. That's the kinda bird art I want to see.
This isn't gonna be on this account. Rather, I created a new account, called
TheBiggestYear
I'm mentioning this in advance so I can give you guys, and myself some time to prepare.
Can't wait to see you there!
But now that all the fun is done, I need to talk about how things have been going. Well, I’m not sure how much more I can take. I haven't made much progress in my art lately. I still feel stuck in that rut. My grades have been falling, and I'm in my last year of college. I still haven't been able to find love. I recently tried asking someone from my school out to homecoming. She claimed she wasn't going, but once I was there, lo and behold, there she was. And I was just trying to reach out to someone. So I'm going to try and find someone else. I'm sick and tired of people telling me that you gotta wait for the right person, or to love yourself before you can love others. I'm done waiting. I've tried to better myself when it comes to making friends, and luckily, I feel I've improved. While not perfect yet, I feel my ability to make friendships is fine and optimal. I'm ready to level up, and I'm tired of being endlessly sidetracked for several years now. I'm tired of being 22, unloved and unfucked.
Now what about drawing? Well, to be honest, it's been a while since I legitimately enjoyed drawing. Lately I feel like I've just been drawing to meet a monthly quota. I think I need a break from it. To get things straightened out.
I'm probably going to take a break from my regular drawing, and even my story writing, until I can get things back to normal, and back on track.
Because as it stands, endlessly posting on here isn't gonna get me any closer to my relationship satisfaction in real life. This fandom is keeping me down. I might just leave it altogether. But that's just an idea, and it'd require me to burn a lot of what I once was. I don't want to see any more of my prime years of my life drowned by this sinkhole.
Despite this, I have a plan. And it's a plan I've been ruminating on for an entire year. If you are familiar with birdwatcher circles, you'll know that there is this challenge to identify or photograph as many birds as possible within the span of a year, and this is known as 'the big year'. I want to do something similar. What I will do, starting January 1, is draw as many birds I can as possible in a year. Not saying I'm gonna do one every day, but I'll try to do as many as I can in 2026, even if I skip a day or do multiple in one day.
The catch? I'm gonna draw them all extra fat. That's the kinda bird art I want to see.
This isn't gonna be on this account. Rather, I created a new account, called
TheBiggestYearI'm mentioning this in advance so I can give you guys, and myself some time to prepare.
Can't wait to see you there!
