Hey everyone, just wanted to give a bit of a status update right now. It's a bit of a darker read, so feel free to skip over this announcement if you wish.

As a lot of you may know, my stepmom has been battling brain cancer. It's unfortunately the worst and most aggressive kind, but we are still hoping for the best. A lot of my family got sick with something really bad recently, right before an event that I've been looking forward to for months, and my stepmom got it as well. I can't really bring myself to explain the next things in detail, but she got a fever and she was already weak from radiation and other factors, and... let's just say this was truly an emergency situation.

The good news is that she made it out alive. The bad news is that she has likely permanent brain damage. The severity, I'm not really sure yet, but her personality... actually as I'm writing this, it just feels wrong for me to explain more in detail- like I'm violating her privacy. All I'll say is that I am not sure the severity of this, but she is probably not going to be the same person that I have known her as all my life. I just hope that it is only by a small amount.

I'm beyond grateful that everything is "ok"- that she is alive. This has been an extraordinary scary experience for me and my family- I can't even express the horrid turmoil of emotions I felt for the past days. But, I am so grateful that everyone is still alive and mostly well.

That being said... If I am honest, I am not really doing so well mentally right now. I've basically went from the highest of highest emotionally and immediately crashlanded into the lowest of emotions. I'll be ok, but I honetly feel a bit empty. I think my brain and body are just protecting me and preventing me from being overwhelmed considering the emotions I have experienced lately. But I've always been an incredibly emotional person, and this feeling is so alien to me it almost scares me. But I know it'll probably pass... I just gotta hold out for a bit.

I just want to update you guys because I'm not going to be active/speaking with anyone right now. For how long, I'm honestly uncertain... I haven't been able to draw recently and I've never skipped a day without doodling for a long time. I think I just need time to just focus on myself, and I feel way too weak to speak with anyone right now. If I'm honest, I feel so fragile that if I speak to anyone about this, instead of just a void, I'll probably break down and cry ahaha.

I might keep posting art when I can, because I express all my feelings into the art that I create. It probably helps to get it all out there, whenever I can draw again. Oddly enough the biggest thing I'll probably be doing is programming, because I can just zone out and not think about anything other than programming and solving things. But if I do, I probably still won't be responding much. I'm not even sure when I'll draw again right now... but knowing me I usually bounce back and draw haha, maybe it will be soon?

That's all I can say for now. It won't be permanent, the worst case scenario has not happened and I should be incredibly thankful for that. The worst has passed, so it should only go up from now >:) But still, I'm going to take this hiatus and just try and... well, find myself again. Thank you all for your support, and always being there for me. I'm forever grateful to you all.

-Ryukiri