Well I don't know where to start this but I have been feeling very depressed and bored lately. I have been battling depression since high school and it got worse after I lost my dog (he was 11 years when we had to put him down), also I lost my father due to cancer (he was 56 years), my mother also had cancer but she luckily survived (she had chemotherapy and 2 surgeries). I really feel depressed, bored and lonely. Most of my time I spend online and really don't do much except for going outside for a walk in the forest and I do some volunteering at a local organization. I sadly don't have a job because of my issues and feel totally useless. I tried very hard to be successful at life but sadly I have failed. Having issues like OCD, ADHD, anxiety, dyslexia and depression didn't make my life easy sadly. I had to put in a lot of effort to successfully finish primary and high school. Now I don't have a job and get benefits from the state because I'm a broken individual with no self esteem and feel useless. I really don't have any local friends. Just 2 online friends that I talk to. I do wish that I had more online friends to talk to but sadly I'm not the one to reach out to people first. Nowadays I just feel hopeless and really tired from everything that I had to deal in my life. It sucks.

Thanks for reading this journal and I wish you a happy day.