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Unspecified Dissociative Disorder
2 weeks ago
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i want to open up and talk about my udd. i've started using we/us for myself more and more and i guess i want to take the time to explain.
i have had dissociation problems most of my life. my mom would have to pick me up from school because i wouldn't know whats real and whats not and it would cause me to have breakdowns and i would be sent home. i can completely lose all hearing and sight from dissociating. but in 2021 something happened ( jul 2, 2021 ) and i remember i woke up the next day to hearing a different voice in my head. i remember being really confused and like i didn't believe what was happening at first, and at one point, i thought i was going crazy. i remember the voice stuck around for a bit and then things started evolving, i realized i could talk to them and they could understand me and talk back. then things evolved more and there were other voices. now fast forward some years. i finally open up to my therapist about everyone, not really looking for a diagnosis but she helped me figure out over time "Unspecified Dissociative Disorder". im very comfortable with everyone, everyone has their own names and they are a part of me. there are 5 of us and i love them all so much. i never know if i should call myself plural or not, but i do consider them like headmates. x3
thanks for reading :3
If you ever felt like talking to me about this more I’m all ears! I can imagine that was really hard to open up about initially.
thank you! ;;; <333 it was!! i was so afraid i was going to be seen as crazy tbh. ;;; but my therapist was just like "that makes sense with everything you've gone through" and was so validating. ;;;
I’m sure you were just as confused and shocked as any of us would be if one day there was just… another.
i can't even explain how weird it was. and now they are like family to me <333
Sheep Boi Dante
~mischief557
Im glad your therapist is doing you good, helping you feel understood and valid! :0 Im sure you know you have no obligation to share any of this here, but I appreciate being able to hear a bit of your experience with this. Thank you for sharing!
thank youu ;;; i was really scared she was going to say i was crazy. ;;; & thank you for reading and taking the time to comment ;;0;; you're always so kind to me ;;; <3333
Sheep Boi Dante
~mischief557
And most importantly!! Im glad you've found comfort in this, think it shows how strong your spirit can be :) will always send good vibes your way when I can
