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2 weeks ago
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Life has its ups and downs, but for many years now I haven’t seen a “good streak” even as thin as a thread. I’ve been living in constant anxiety for years, always feeling like something bad is bound to happen.
And it does. All the time.
Of course, there’s no point in writing about it every single time, because then my journals would be nothing but endless records of my problems. But this time, something happened that I feel I need to talk about.
While I was out of town for less than a week, my mom had a very bad fall and injured her leg (I suspect it might be a hip fracture). Because I wasn’t there, she couldn’t call an ambulance or even open the door for them. I was only able to come back two days later, and now time has been lost. The ambulance refuses to come, saying this is “not the kind of case” they respond to (lol). It’s impossible to take her for an X-ray because she can’t walk or even stand. Since no solution was found, a few more days have already been lost. Hopefully tomorrow some acquaintances will be able to help get her to a clinic for imaging.
What scares me the most is that it might actually be that kind of fracture, because the symptoms match very closely. That thought terrifies me, because the cost of treatment is enormous, and I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if that turns out to be the case. I just don’t know where I’m supposed to find the money every time something like this happens. Especially such large amounts. I’m so, so tired…
I’m trying to keep working, but my daily routine has changed a lot because I need to stay with my mom and help her constantly. I’m still drawing, but I’m worried I might have to push my deadlines back by at least a month. I’m truly sorry. I really am trying my best.
More than anything, I just want to have at least a little bit of something good in my life. This is unbearable. The amount of problems I’m carrying keeps growing, and I don’t know how much longer I can handle it.
I’m sorry for writing this, and I’m sorry if it’s a bit chaotic. I felt it was important to let you know what’s going on and why there might be delays. I will do my best to meet my deadlines.
I’ll keep posting updates about this situation.
Thank you for your attention.
And it does. All the time.
Of course, there’s no point in writing about it every single time, because then my journals would be nothing but endless records of my problems. But this time, something happened that I feel I need to talk about.
While I was out of town for less than a week, my mom had a very bad fall and injured her leg (I suspect it might be a hip fracture). Because I wasn’t there, she couldn’t call an ambulance or even open the door for them. I was only able to come back two days later, and now time has been lost. The ambulance refuses to come, saying this is “not the kind of case” they respond to (lol). It’s impossible to take her for an X-ray because she can’t walk or even stand. Since no solution was found, a few more days have already been lost. Hopefully tomorrow some acquaintances will be able to help get her to a clinic for imaging.
What scares me the most is that it might actually be that kind of fracture, because the symptoms match very closely. That thought terrifies me, because the cost of treatment is enormous, and I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if that turns out to be the case. I just don’t know where I’m supposed to find the money every time something like this happens. Especially such large amounts. I’m so, so tired…
I’m trying to keep working, but my daily routine has changed a lot because I need to stay with my mom and help her constantly. I’m still drawing, but I’m worried I might have to push my deadlines back by at least a month. I’m truly sorry. I really am trying my best.
More than anything, I just want to have at least a little bit of something good in my life. This is unbearable. The amount of problems I’m carrying keeps growing, and I don’t know how much longer I can handle it.
I’m sorry for writing this, and I’m sorry if it’s a bit chaotic. I felt it was important to let you know what’s going on and why there might be delays. I will do my best to meet my deadlines.
I’ll keep posting updates about this situation.
Thank you for your attention.
I wish your mother a speedy recovery and good health!
I'm sure there will be many more white stripes in your life. It's easy to forget about the good things when you're sad, but the good things will definitely happen with u