So my friends and I are going to be starting up a band soon. Now this is something I have always wanted to do for as long as I was 10 years old. I never let my family know about it because I was always told to shut up when I sing.. I grew up being put down by my mother. Mother is said to be god in the eyes and hearts of their children. So I guess you know how I felt throughout my life with my dreams.Now this something I have AlWAYS wanted to do, I just never was open about it, and now you know why.
For some reason I got the urge to let my mother know today during dinner about the band... At first it seemed pretty fine, shockingly. As the conversation progressed she started to put me down, saying that I'm nearing the end of my senior year and I'm unsure of what I want to do with my life. She said that it's basically too late to do this, that I'll be that guy who's always home when my friends come to visit from their succesful lives they can say "Hey Lulu is probably still here".. I wish I could tell her all that she has ever done to me to make me so scared and emotional about my life. I'm so passionate about music that I know I'm supposed to be involved in this sort of thing.
Why is it that i can't do anything to make anyone proud of me? Why can't I be special for anything? Well that's it, this is the thing I'm not going to give up on. And anyone else who has had their dreams crushed, pick that up and ride it as far as you want it to go! Don't you ever fucking give up!