Hi there guys. I have a little request to you. My close friend asked me to spread the word about a case that needs to be addressed to as much of you as possible.

Thing is that  konnor's dad died few days ago and since he lives far away from him he needs some money to get there and if possible pay for cremation

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Still very fresh in my mind the most recent events I am trying to focus my mind elsewhere. Trying to remember I have be strong and be strong for my best friend. Right now though I have never felt so weak minded and pathetic. I wasn't strong enough to stay there. I had to distance myself, but not on selfish reasons. I wanted him to have time to do the grieving he needed to with his family and I was a whimpering mess and knew I could be no good to him like this. I did this to help the both of us. Why some of you may think me to be a worthless pile of shit I hope some understand.

As much as I don't really care for my family here in Missouri I came to them so I could have them help me deal with this. I do fancy being able to hold my niece Laniyah who is 5 months tomorrow. Just holding her helped me to calm down big time. I am trying to bury images that are playing in my head, but of course this is hard, but I have to do it. I do not plan to be away from my friend forever. No way in hell. We keep in touch by phone and net and I will not let that stop.

I have not been taking care of my health and have been feeling bad so that is yet another thing I need to take care of. I talked with many people about my decision and most everyone understood why I felt I needed to give space. How can I ever help someone when I can't even help myself right now. I need to build myself up. My emotions are strong, but they should not handicap me.It becomes more of a problem, but I wish not to let my emotions completely dry up because I do want to feel, but be able to handle it better. I still need to focus on my health and my goals. I don't know how not to sound selfish with anything here. Everything sounds wrong right now. Am I selfish or am I doing the right thing? I know he is trying himself to keep his mind off things. I dunno anymore.