As most people do not know what the fuck has been going on with me.. it's been stressed... as some people know that my grandmother is hospice and well guess who is on Edge....Me...

I have been such on edge that even me and my master had a fight... a minor fight...and yes it wasn't pretty... it was over minor stuff but then it turned into a fight that didn't need to happen then basically master snapped... Gut Reaction:Snap back. Then it completely turned into even more of a wreck when i started to fucking cry and started doubting my fucking exsistance (as in not wanting to succeed, that things will not work, that i would be shipped back home and basically drama). Then to top it off i brought off the shit from me trying to get back home and then living with mom for the next few days... and i regret it as well ). So yeah... Otter is very fucking stressed and really can't wait to leave for Waukesha and hang out with Bit and his crew... But feel free on the warning....i may still be on edge for the next week....until this thing passes...Hell i can't even look at the christmas gift that my grandmother gave me cause it hurts that fucking bad.....


Later i need sleep,

Jaxson