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I'm sorry.
16 years ago
Is not being a good start of a new decade to me.
I don't like to introduce elements of my personal life into the fandom, knowing very well the bad reputation I have but I need to share this.
Last weekend I discovered my parents are in a financial situation, my mother's pension for her fibromialgia is going to be revoked and she is 64 with still three years to go at a professional level for obtain the minimum social care help for jubilated people. My father's pension is close to don't be much able to pay all the bills, included their home where I still live (and we have seven years to go for end the "hipoteca").
All this information was drop to me after I confessed I have two years to go (if everything goes well) for obtain my degree in humanities. I'm 25 years old and still unemployed, and with the recession plus the immobiliary crisis is extremely hard to find a job now for contribute at home.
There is also the fear to lost my father in a upcoming intervention for substitute great part of his talon, he is 67 years old and everybody in my family depends economically of his pension.
From my side, I didn't confess university doesn't goes well at all, I still have two "asignaturas" which I still repeating since the beginning of my career and seems I'm putting myself in a dangerous condition by the "university permanence regime of 2004/2005".
I must confess I never felt such fear and worry for my family's future and myself. I don't know I would do if things get worse, so I started to look for a job which I could combine with my classes and study hard for get rid of these "asignaturas" which can put me out of the university and waste five years of my life.
However, if things get worse I don't know I would do, so, I want to apology to everyone I hurt in the past with my lies and trolling.
The furry fandom (and specially the macrophile.com community) didn't deserve such behavior from my side when I meet people which just wanted to be friendly and nice. I let the worse of my take the control and waste the chance to meet wonderful and talented people from beyond my country which now hate and despise me.
I also wasted my real life being a victim of the family issues which bring us to such a situation, the fear hold me of doing anything as a kid and as a teenager.
I'm so sorry for be such a terrible person, for disappoint so many people and for don't do the right things.
I just wish you all the best luck in life, not success, but true happiness of knowing you had enjoyed life and also did something worthy, something which you would be remembered by somebody.
My apologies to Susandeer, DNApalmhead, Bennie, Coug'r, Dragonien, Twitch, Airlin, Gideon, Wolfman-Al, Rattus, Zukezorin Ransom...
You didn't deserve to suffer my shit all these years both in the boards and in the Mirc channels.
I don't like to introduce elements of my personal life into the fandom, knowing very well the bad reputation I have but I need to share this.
Last weekend I discovered my parents are in a financial situation, my mother's pension for her fibromialgia is going to be revoked and she is 64 with still three years to go at a professional level for obtain the minimum social care help for jubilated people. My father's pension is close to don't be much able to pay all the bills, included their home where I still live (and we have seven years to go for end the "hipoteca").
All this information was drop to me after I confessed I have two years to go (if everything goes well) for obtain my degree in humanities. I'm 25 years old and still unemployed, and with the recession plus the immobiliary crisis is extremely hard to find a job now for contribute at home.
There is also the fear to lost my father in a upcoming intervention for substitute great part of his talon, he is 67 years old and everybody in my family depends economically of his pension.
From my side, I didn't confess university doesn't goes well at all, I still have two "asignaturas" which I still repeating since the beginning of my career and seems I'm putting myself in a dangerous condition by the "university permanence regime of 2004/2005".
I must confess I never felt such fear and worry for my family's future and myself. I don't know I would do if things get worse, so I started to look for a job which I could combine with my classes and study hard for get rid of these "asignaturas" which can put me out of the university and waste five years of my life.
However, if things get worse I don't know I would do, so, I want to apology to everyone I hurt in the past with my lies and trolling.
The furry fandom (and specially the macrophile.com community) didn't deserve such behavior from my side when I meet people which just wanted to be friendly and nice. I let the worse of my take the control and waste the chance to meet wonderful and talented people from beyond my country which now hate and despise me.
I also wasted my real life being a victim of the family issues which bring us to such a situation, the fear hold me of doing anything as a kid and as a teenager.
I'm so sorry for be such a terrible person, for disappoint so many people and for don't do the right things.
I just wish you all the best luck in life, not success, but true happiness of knowing you had enjoyed life and also did something worthy, something which you would be remembered by somebody.
My apologies to Susandeer, DNApalmhead, Bennie, Coug'r, Dragonien, Twitch, Airlin, Gideon, Wolfman-Al, Rattus, Zukezorin Ransom...
You didn't deserve to suffer my shit all these years both in the boards and in the Mirc channels.
I hope things improve quickly on your end, both for your parents/pensions, and in schooling at the university, as well as work. Please, hang in there!
I have a job interview today, I don't know yet which is the time span but if it is compatible with my classes then that would mean I can start to save money.