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I'm there again.
I am feeling very overwhelmed right now. I lost my job. I'm at a point with my art in which I am having doubts about my ability to do this professionally. I feel the quality of my work is often times sub-par. I'm trying to pull my head together right now and figure things out. What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? What am I looking for? How am I going to find it?
These are all little signs. It's time to take a few steps back, clear my head and meditate. Gotta give myself some time to relax and catch my breath.
Obviously being out of work means I need money. That pulls me towards doing commissions, but right now I feel so drained on the idea. Is this just a normal occurrence for after a convention? Should I expect this to happen after every con I deal at?
I have enough money to get through roughly a month and a half without an income. After that I'll need to either find a job or find odd jobs or for hire work to get me through. Family will help out a bit also.
For now I'm closing for all commissions until I get a little rest and a little motivation. I’m going to clear out my current queue and I don’t want to consider opening back up for commissions requests until it’s empty. I’m only going to open for commissions if I really, really need the money. I’m going to do more art for myself so that I can enjoy it a bit more and just try to relax and distress from the last two months.
OH! I’m also going to get back to ArtSpots and start doing the sketchers and the critiques and challenges. I really miss that. As well as my old sketching and realism and painting studies. I miss doing all of that. So if any of you are over on ArtSpots.com, come find me! http://ebonstripes.artspots.com/
Stay Happy Guys!
I am feeling very overwhelmed right now. I lost my job. I'm at a point with my art in which I am having doubts about my ability to do this professionally. I feel the quality of my work is often times sub-par. I'm trying to pull my head together right now and figure things out. What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? What am I looking for? How am I going to find it?
These are all little signs. It's time to take a few steps back, clear my head and meditate. Gotta give myself some time to relax and catch my breath.
Obviously being out of work means I need money. That pulls me towards doing commissions, but right now I feel so drained on the idea. Is this just a normal occurrence for after a convention? Should I expect this to happen after every con I deal at?
I have enough money to get through roughly a month and a half without an income. After that I'll need to either find a job or find odd jobs or for hire work to get me through. Family will help out a bit also.
For now I'm closing for all commissions until I get a little rest and a little motivation. I’m going to clear out my current queue and I don’t want to consider opening back up for commissions requests until it’s empty. I’m only going to open for commissions if I really, really need the money. I’m going to do more art for myself so that I can enjoy it a bit more and just try to relax and distress from the last two months.
OH! I’m also going to get back to ArtSpots and start doing the sketchers and the critiques and challenges. I really miss that. As well as my old sketching and realism and painting studies. I miss doing all of that. So if any of you are over on ArtSpots.com, come find me! http://ebonstripes.artspots.com/
Stay Happy Guys!
i think you need to reach a place where there isnt so much stress to taint other facets of your being. in Hawaiian culture we believe that when you are creating something, be it music, crafts, or art of any kind, that you must not do it if your attitude is in a bad place, or you will infect the work with it. just breathe deep find a place where the air is fresh, and meditate a bit. and get back to your art when your soul is feeling better.
hope that made sense to you lol, im not much of a writer, hope my meaning got across.
I've separated myself from that, as well as in other areas of my life. I need some time to mediate and pulls myself together as a whole and find it again.
Thanks Keone. You think you're not much of a writer, but your words are as potent as your music. Don't knock yourself, you're an artist and you've got a powerful medium of expression.
Also, when you begin to perceive something new you can learn in your art, you start to get a general feeling of "My art sucks" which eventually can be narrowed down to just what you're seeing to improve.
But either way, taking a load off will help.
My purpose with this is the start enjoying art, therefore start doing art I enjoy; and to also seek improvement and continue pushign and practicng without obsessing over how much I lack. I have to start to allow myself to see my strengths as well as my weaknesses. I often times only see my weaknesses and it sucks, it taints what I do when all I see is fail, fail fail.
Thanks Snapai.
Seriously, take the time you need to get yourself right. You'll be better off for it. Make a plan and then follow it. :)
A) Work simple work to pay my way.
B) Get back to my hobbies to pass away the time
C) Get a bit more solitude to spend more time with myself
D) Force myself to sit down, shut up and enjoy doing absolutely nothing; aka meditate and enjoy some calm.
The ranch has reached a sort of vacation destination appeal in my mind. I can hear the advertisement now.
Rance De Hog
Come escape to a place where the animal roam and the sky's the limit, where you can find peace, oneness and focus in the pristine quiet, nature and solitude of the great South West. Just be careful because once you arrive to paradice, you might not ever go back!
I cant give you much advice on perking your interest to draw considering mine is dead as shit..
But I can say, take about a week off and think about things, think of ways to earn money quickly, think of odd jobs you can do, thats how I did after I was laid off. I ended up doing ok for the rest of the year.
but again, listening to the rantings of fat people never do good *jams more Cheetos's into his mouth* mmmmm oh ho ho hoooo..
Just don't do like I did, and get out there and get yourself broke up and destroyed you know. *moves wrist and it sounds like a cement mixer*
Instead of doing the projects "because you have to", try playing around, focusing on one thing at a time going "you know what... let me try and do something different... because I bet most of your commissions are things you wouldn't have tried to do if you were left on your own to create.
As for the job thing, I am sure you are looking now, and it is a blessing you have family to help support you in your time of need :) I pray you find a job soon >.<
It's true about commissions and my life has this shit-tastic way of dropping crap in my lap when I'm under the most pressure and drowning in deadlines. I fall apart under too much stress and that's what I feel like I've been dealing with for he last year or so. Freakin' school and work are too much, adding commissions on top and then the crap I'm dealing with day to day at home, it's just a miracle I haven't snapped yet.
And yeah, I have to remember to find interesting elements in my commissions even when I'm not in the mood.
I hope you'll be able to find the motivation to get through your queue also. It's no fun to have large piles of work looming. =(
As for doubting your skills, that also is normal, but unfounded. I love going to cons and hanging around artists - it always makes me want to draw. At the same time, being around so many -better- artists also makes me want to hide my stuff in shame. XD But what makes it all better is if I manage to improve, just a little, or learn something new. You helped me with that this con, and I really can't thank you enough.
So yes, take a breather, regroup, and don't fret about your skill level! We're all learning, all improving. And most of all, keep your joy in it. Draw just for you for a while. Gotta remember to have fun. ;)
you're so right about how we artists feel about our work. There is always someone we look at who makes us want to hang up our supplies because we see their work as miles beyond our own. But that's no reason to quit because each of us works in unique ways and our our reflects our individuality. I LOVED your work and it was nice to get to share in it with you. I was so inspired by all the artists I saw. I just have to focus that on improvement and joy and not on how much better everyone else is.
*hugs much* I really hope we get to do lots of art together durring RF. =) I learned a good deal, but most of all I had a great time.