Lately, I haven't been feeling like myself..(its not PMS so don't suggest that) but I mean in skewl or where ever I am I feel like everything around me is a dream..even right now.

I have been trying to avoid friends, family, and my mate not really on purpose but because lately things I have been saying have been hurting them.. u.u

Last night, I had flash fevers to my chest and up. My stomache hurt. My arms felt bruised tat it wasn't fun to poke. I had a major headache. My heart felt like it was skipping beats. It started to become harder to breathe (i have asthma) and last, at points I had goosebumps. V.V

As for this weekend I'm sure we all aware of Pointless Day (aka Valentine's Day Dx) I have never been the person to get into the googy lub lub
This will be my second year spending it with someone though. For my mate I'm getting him alittle something something. (a rose, and one of those little crystal boxes that has a heart inside and says "For the one I love the most. Together" i also picked up a stand so it changes colors (red, blue, and green)
HOWEVER. One of my closet guy friends will be spending it alone. After talking with my mate, I will be his valentine also.

Here are a list of things i'm stressing over::

-skewl
-family (brother and dad yelling and screaming at each other, my moms tight money)
-I have two D's and one F
-i am failing band bc of the quizzes
-my self image.self esteem
-friends
-an income
-more family in Nebraska
-kinda my mate
-and other little things tat now piss/stress me out
EX: my headphones =/ i can't here squat and i'm freakin PISSED.

well i think I have vented enough

*howls and fades*