lately it seems like everyone is lying to me, all i ever ask is the truth from people, yet they seem to believe that by lying to me, i will feel better, or maybe they believe that if they tell me the truth i will try to stop them.
the truth is, i don't really care anymore what people do around me, i wont try to stop them unless they try to harm or steal from me and mine, but im tired of it. all the people that hate me, or lie to me, it hurts, it hurts a lot, and i don't know how much more i can take
i really don't.
so for now i concentrate on doing for me, on making my life better, if this hurts other people, im sorry. but i need this, i don't know who i can trust, who is lying to me, who hates me, and smiles to my face.

lately i don't talk to anyone, i don't see people, all i do is hide from the world, i don't seem to care about anyone but myself and its getting worse, because it makes me feel better im relying on it.
i hate myself lately. so much hate, so much anger. people betray my trust, and think i didn't know, i try to help them, even with my last breath i still try to help them, yet they still hurt me
maybe i should cut myself off from the world, sever all ties with my friends and family, maybe i should try to help them still, be the beating rug they seem to think i am
i try to be a nice guy, i help when it hurts
but
i dunno anymore
i don't know why people hate me
i don't know, i just don't know