I don't understand, why I am seeing everyone else's working, and I am working then mine fucking dies, while their's gets better, I lost the one I loved, and that's just down right, depressing, so I may not be so up and happy for a long time if at all, I just am not sure why life fucking plays with me...I don't understand... still up for messages from people when they want to talk, but sorry if i am down, mostly. Then again I don't think many will read this, but it just had to be wrote so i did it here.