Well last night i got no sleep at all. i'm currently tired, lonely and upset lol. As well as that my self confidence is at an all time low.
It seems that when everything is going right something comes along that turns me into a paranoid person. Today my mate is going to meet up with a fur thats near to where he lives (sorta lol) but my mind is plauged by thoughts and images that make me want to yell "DON'T GO" That is just unfair. I know my mate loves me and i trust him. But 2 years into our relationship and the distance between us seems to be gotting and bigger. Some nights i sit in my room alone, all my friends out with their partners while i can't hold my mate close to me or tell him i love him in person.
Sometimes i feel he is better off without me and that there are people out there who are better for him than me. Some days i even wonder why he is even with me.
But i know that if my Mater loves me the way i love him then i have nothing to worry about. I just whis that i wasn't so paranoid.