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. i'm gonna make this a nice grave .
16 years ago
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. can you feel the sunshine? does it brighten up your day? . Vanon had a nice ceremony, if you can call it that.
we (me,
fenrirlokison, jae, fu and chase) buried my lil one day of his death very illegally in the back of my apartment complex. they said some nice words and fu sang the meow-mix jingle, cause he couldnt think of a proper hymn.
took ages to find a shovel in the middle of the night and not look like murderers. going into lowes with my hands caked in dirt (and bleeding from when i recklessly was digging by hand) with tears in my eyes probably wasnt a good look.
i was really worried that we didnt bury him deeply enough so i collected some stones that
colley was kind enough to help me carry back home today. tonight is the first night of me sleeping here since Vanon died.
its really awkward typing this, mostly cause i know it hasnt fully sunk in yet. and probably wont until the next week or so when i try to stop my instinctual reaction of looking down to be sure he's not underfoot.
so, i'm going to go decorate his gravesite now. maybe in the spring, grow some flowers there. i mean, i want it to be inconspicuous, but still honouring my best friend of the last 13 years of my life.
god damn it.
all these tears are gonna short out my keyboard.
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ps . thanks to those who have helped me and those for all your well-wishes. i really dont know what else to say.
we (me,
fenrirlokison, jae, fu and chase) buried my lil one day of his death very illegally in the back of my apartment complex. they said some nice words and fu sang the meow-mix jingle, cause he couldnt think of a proper hymn.took ages to find a shovel in the middle of the night and not look like murderers. going into lowes with my hands caked in dirt (and bleeding from when i recklessly was digging by hand) with tears in my eyes probably wasnt a good look.
i was really worried that we didnt bury him deeply enough so i collected some stones that
colley was kind enough to help me carry back home today. tonight is the first night of me sleeping here since Vanon died.its really awkward typing this, mostly cause i know it hasnt fully sunk in yet. and probably wont until the next week or so when i try to stop my instinctual reaction of looking down to be sure he's not underfoot.
so, i'm going to go decorate his gravesite now. maybe in the spring, grow some flowers there. i mean, i want it to be inconspicuous, but still honouring my best friend of the last 13 years of my life.
god damn it.
all these tears are gonna short out my keyboard.
[404]
ps . thanks to those who have helped me and those for all your well-wishes. i really dont know what else to say.
While he spent time plotting my doom by trying to pounce on my face as I slept. We would sit back and he'd envy me that I got to drink a beer and he only got a bowl of water and kitty food.
He was a good kitty, and I think for the most part he is cackling that he got to help make my right ear go deafer as he rode in my car. (He got a good set of lungs!)
He was never my cat, but he at least made my apartment feel pleasant as i would come home from school to the sound of vanon saying "FEED ME BITCH! or I SICK MOMMA ON YOUS!!"
Rest in Peace Vanon, you were loved! and still are!
Condolences regarding the loss of a loved one.
when my cat of 12 years passed away a couple of years back, someone offered their condolences and told me that cats are "special little people".
i don't know why but that's always really stuck with me. they'll always be special, even long after they've gone.