My big problem is finally culled down into a little ball of resent, regret, and repelling my confidence. It's been almost a year now since it began and it's going to keep present in my life for a long time...but luckily I'm now able to act above the effects of this problem and pretend my way to normal. It began as something fantastic, amazingly joyous, grew into something awkward an uncomfortable, and then into the final stages was mind wrecking painful and emotionally debilitating. Sadly, I must force it to remain in these final stages and be happy in life for the sake of everything else. In the long run, I can dream and reminisce of the earlier times, although that is all. One day I may be able to move on up to 90% from this problem, but it's always going to be stuck within my memories and leaving that metaphorical bittersweet taste in my heart. So here is to regret, scars, and hope...cheers.