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[vent. please ignore]
16 years ago
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I hate myself. I really do.
Why do I have to torture myself so much? Why do I always have to do what's worst for me in pursuing futile dreams and hoping for things I can't have?
There's nothing I seem to want to hang on to, no goal I seem to be capable of reaching, no little carrot-on-a-stick that will keep me going. At least, not any that I will ever have any access to.
Like an idiot, I push away everyone I love and then whine about it to everyone else. Just like I'm doing right now.
I eagerly await the day I turn 18; then the whole world will be punished for its various sins by having to listen to ME all the time.
This will be deleted soon. Feel free to laugh at me or something. I prefer you not comment.
Whatever.
Why do I have to torture myself so much? Why do I always have to do what's worst for me in pursuing futile dreams and hoping for things I can't have?
There's nothing I seem to want to hang on to, no goal I seem to be capable of reaching, no little carrot-on-a-stick that will keep me going. At least, not any that I will ever have any access to.
Like an idiot, I push away everyone I love and then whine about it to everyone else. Just like I'm doing right now.
I eagerly await the day I turn 18; then the whole world will be punished for its various sins by having to listen to ME all the time.
This will be deleted soon. Feel free to laugh at me or something. I prefer you not comment.
Whatever.
Hell no.
Sorry for going against your wish that I'd not comment, but I know how you feel; I've been through the same strage - the same feelings.
If you want to talk about it - to a complete stranger, notably, who doesn't know you and never met you - I'm about & availible.
But you need to talk about it - to me, someone else, a shrink, whoever. Stuff like this eats you from the inside-out, man =/
ehh... There are just a few people I'm willing to talk to about stuff like this. I'm waiting for one of them at the moment.
Thanks, though, stranger whom I have never met.
Hope everything works out for you!
(also: MSN. I don't know if you use it much, but I do. So I added you. :U)