i was really really looking forward to spending Saturday with everybody at ren fair for somebody's birthday, but due to communication errors, i kinda got ditched, my fault I'm sure but that's just how i feel.

my roommate reset the cable modem and i lost my secure connection with the application server and lost a lot of information (1hr of work) for my job I'm applying for.

I have friends calling asking me for favors to help them out, when i can barely help myself at this moment.

My mom called yesterday and told me "hey, i might have cancer, i don't' want chemo, and i want to be DNR. You'll be in charge if your step father can't do it."

so then i went and hung out with a friend, who's a smoker and had a huge astmah attck due to the smoke smell. after getting that undercontrol at home, i made plans to go to Matsuri, thinking that it will be fun.

not so, I get a call from somebody i'm supposed to be avoiding for a little bit just to have space "i'm coughing up blood, should i go to the hospital?" "oh, well nobody can take me can you?" of course i'll take him, he's still my friend no matter what, but i'm not really getting any distance here.

i finally get hom after 5am, crash, sleep through my alarms, and miss matsuri... :( what a shitty weekend.

so all this stacked onto me losing my job, and fighting with my friend has me VERY stressed out. please don't take it personally, please don't hate me. i'm just not in a happy point.