it may just be my cold causeing me to feel this way so you don't really have to pay attention to this


i am so fed up with life right now it seems no matter what i do noting work out and i'm to damn passive to do anything about it, i'm always afraid to speak my mind and do what i want because i'm afraid of offending someone and i never get anywhere. Then there is the fact that i'm just to damn nice, everyone always say your just so nice blah blah blah well being nice to people have gotten me nowhere all i have gotten out of it is walked all over by everyone and unhappiness. all my dreams and goals just always seem to get further and further away and at this rate i'll never accomplish anything sooo fuck, and the worst part is i can't seem to be able to speak my mind every time i try it just gets bottled up because of my own insecurity's and now i feel like i'm going to explode, fuck i need to get away from it all i need a vacation so i'm gonna go walk to work now to try and blow off some steam it's like a 2 hour walk so hopefully it helps me calm my self down -_- . this may all just be a cold talkin so ya >.<