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My Putrid Moment: A Reflection (Updated^^!!)
16 years ago
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Hey ppl^^! As u all (possibly) know, i usually deal with things by writing abt 'em . . . so here goes:
This last Monday (march 1) a classmate of mine sat by my side in the halls of the UPR and kiss'd me (w/ a really stinky/putrid stench in his mouth). Right after that i felt my stomach/insides hurl as if to say "ack that didn't feel right :s . . . not at all" And i don't really know why . . . I mean i have an idea (well, a few ideas) why but most of 'em come short . . .
the only 1 that makes sense to me right now wud be that i didn't think he'd actually kiss me (was taken by surprise, n' not in a good way) so out of the blue ( even though i was teasing/flirtn' -- i was reading my philosophy assignment out loud to annoy him lol -- , but hey' i barely know this guy -n' vice versa -, i didn't think he'd go for it just out of the blue u know? its not like i've given him that vote of confidence) Maybe thats why... perhaps my pride got hurt (i mean he just assumed that i wanted him to kiss me?? grrrr >:(
Perhaps i was too flirty (n' he was definitely too forward/presumptuous) i think i shud control my sexual desires and not act solely on them (not saying that sex is bad, just that i thought -- at that moment -- that i was going back on my word(like i btrayed my code of ethics/honor -n' i usually make it a point to keep my Word to others n myself (its part of who i am/my image, n taking the initiative solely on sexual impulse was compromising that) -- i wanted -and still want-- my next intimate moment to b something more, to mean something and hopefully w/ another furry^^)
so basically the lesson here is NEVER b flirty w/ someone u don't like in a romantic sense (it won't make u happy i can tell ya that, mundanes suck :s lol ), Hopefully this putrid moment will b the 1st n' very last :s Thanx for putting up w/ my ranting/reflection guys^^ Take care ppl^^! *waves a paw*
D.I.G.
ps. so yeah thats whats been going on l8ly (n' thats why i was a bit down when u called on Monday (u know who u r :)
p.p.s. Comments r awesome, but u don't have to if ya don't wanna
3/march/2010 Wed
Well as i said b4 never go on sexual impulse alone and don't flirt w/ just ne one; those r the main lessons one cud draw from this experience....
BUT, thankfully i got my wish today^^ (3 march) i wanted to give him a piece of my mind and tell him i felt dishonor'd and shamed that he did this w/o my consent And wha do ya know? my thoughts manifest'd, he showed up, knowing that i was angry n apologized( sorry i was a jerk, was too forward... forgive me?) so i just said hey its ok bsides its only half ur fault, since i was the one who was out of his mind/sleepy-ish n flirty all of a sudden so lets just call it even k? We made our promises N' we reconciled^^ *huuuuuuugs him* I'm so glad thats over w/ made me feel so good that i had a gay day ;) lolz) --> that is, a day where ifeel evrythings going my way and i feel super happy-go-lucky thru out the day n_n he's just so cuuute :3 and kind to me, i think he'd b a good cuddle buddy, perhaps^^
To good friends^^ (Ah! N' dont b rude/pervy w/ others unless they don't mind it k?)
W/ huggles,
Zephy.kun
This last Monday (march 1) a classmate of mine sat by my side in the halls of the UPR and kiss'd me (w/ a really stinky/putrid stench in his mouth). Right after that i felt my stomach/insides hurl as if to say "ack that didn't feel right :s . . . not at all" And i don't really know why . . . I mean i have an idea (well, a few ideas) why but most of 'em come short . . .
the only 1 that makes sense to me right now wud be that i didn't think he'd actually kiss me (was taken by surprise, n' not in a good way) so out of the blue ( even though i was teasing/flirtn' -- i was reading my philosophy assignment out loud to annoy him lol -- , but hey' i barely know this guy -n' vice versa -, i didn't think he'd go for it just out of the blue u know? its not like i've given him that vote of confidence) Maybe thats why... perhaps my pride got hurt (i mean he just assumed that i wanted him to kiss me?? grrrr >:(
Perhaps i was too flirty (n' he was definitely too forward/presumptuous) i think i shud control my sexual desires and not act solely on them (not saying that sex is bad, just that i thought -- at that moment -- that i was going back on my word(like i btrayed my code of ethics/honor -n' i usually make it a point to keep my Word to others n myself (its part of who i am/my image, n taking the initiative solely on sexual impulse was compromising that) -- i wanted -and still want-- my next intimate moment to b something more, to mean something and hopefully w/ another furry^^)
so basically the lesson here is NEVER b flirty w/ someone u don't like in a romantic sense (it won't make u happy i can tell ya that, mundanes suck :s lol ), Hopefully this putrid moment will b the 1st n' very last :s Thanx for putting up w/ my ranting/reflection guys^^ Take care ppl^^! *waves a paw*
D.I.G.
ps. so yeah thats whats been going on l8ly (n' thats why i was a bit down when u called on Monday (u know who u r :)
p.p.s. Comments r awesome, but u don't have to if ya don't wanna
3/march/2010 Wed
Well as i said b4 never go on sexual impulse alone and don't flirt w/ just ne one; those r the main lessons one cud draw from this experience....
BUT, thankfully i got my wish today^^ (3 march) i wanted to give him a piece of my mind and tell him i felt dishonor'd and shamed that he did this w/o my consent And wha do ya know? my thoughts manifest'd, he showed up, knowing that i was angry n apologized( sorry i was a jerk, was too forward... forgive me?) so i just said hey its ok bsides its only half ur fault, since i was the one who was out of his mind/sleepy-ish n flirty all of a sudden so lets just call it even k? We made our promises N' we reconciled^^ *huuuuuuugs him* I'm so glad thats over w/ made me feel so good that i had a gay day ;) lolz) --> that is, a day where ifeel evrythings going my way and i feel super happy-go-lucky thru out the day n_n he's just so cuuute :3 and kind to me, i think he'd b a good cuddle buddy, perhaps^^
To good friends^^ (Ah! N' dont b rude/pervy w/ others unless they don't mind it k?)
W/ huggles,
Zephy.kun
