I'm not going to go to any more parties like the one last night. I ended up having an anxiety attack and had to crash in the ball pit for a while. Then for some reason I started getting really depressed, and I feel like I was emotionally overloaded.
now, I just don't know what to do with my life. I can't find a job, I don't really have anyone to hang out with or talk to and I have no idea whats going on with my sexuality. some days I think I'm straight, some days I think I'm gay, some days I'm bi and some days I feel aesexual. I don't know whats going on. I've been thinking about going to college since I have a huge college fund thats just sort of collecting dust. but if I go to college, I have no idea what I would get a degree for. should I study more photography? should I study psychology? should I study to become a police officer?
I have no fucking idea what to do with my life anymore, and it's driving me crazy.