so... yea... i got fired from my kitchen today...

just as i thought that the rain from the weekend had passed another storm just rolls right on in.

it's hard to smile with tears in your eyes.

im still in shock about it all my self really... i have cutco... but i just wanted to have that as a part time job...
hopefully i can land a massage job quick... work that full time and cutco part time... i know i wont have much of a social life anymore but with all my friends busy and my ex pissed at me... who would i hang out with?

you cant have a party with just a host... you need a few other people and there has to be smiles and laughter... lots of laughter... i mean that is what good times are made of right?...

as to my ex i am sorry... im sorry that i hurt you and im sorry that you hurt me...

if only things were difforent... i wish i could just turn my brain off. like i said you or one of my otherr friends could get me that tagal switch and i'll find a doc who'll install it. *tries to smile*

but its too late... you probably wont even read this... *ears fall trying not to cry*

it's okay though... i know that there are people who love me and care... and i know you will be okay... i mean after all you made it so far without having me around or should i say having met me.

sorry guys, im trying to keep my chin up and look on the brighter side... there are just a lot of rain drops in my eyes.

kaz out. *peace, Love, and Cookies*