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HOLY FUCKING SHIT OF FAGGOTRY TRUE COLORS
15 years ago
We live in a world shadowed by monsters...
The True Colors conference.
is.
fucking.
fantastic.
I got there at 7:47 AM, and was greeted by an extra enthusiastic group of queers jumping around screaming "WE LIKE DICKS SO GET
IT STRAIGHT WE LOVE TO BE QUEER AREN'T WE GREAT?" I just fell in love. i have never been more at home and more comfortable
in my entire life. We went to an introduction performance, where a stand up guy talked about how he fell in love in high school, got to see
a 6 foot 5 drag queen dress like Lady Gaga and dance to Poker Face (HER NAME WAS MOMMA. OH MY GOD. SHE WAS FABULOUS.),
then we got to see a macho African American fag dance to every form of hip-hop imaginable. It blew my mind. Holy shit.
Next, we went to our first session, where we got to choose one workshop, anyone that we wanted. I ended up with a friend of mine in "I
am Beautiful, DAMMIT! Exploring Body Comfort". The people in that group took my breath away. one really sweet gay guy got up and
told us about how he had been beaten almost to death by the wrestling team at his school, but one of those very same wrestlers, who
didn't take part in the beating, drove him to the hospital and stayed with him ;w; All the people there were so chill and have gone through
a lot of the things I have, and we all understood one another. EVEN THE STRAIGHT PEOPLE WERE FUCKING AMAZING.
We then had lunch. By then I had met two amazing chicks by the names of Julie and Katie. We spent the entire lunch talking about why
Katie wasn't a full blown dyke (she likes giving blowjobs too much), how Julie's religious family was reacting to her bisexuality, and then
somewhere along the mix my name was no longer Lola. It was now Butterfly. So yes. My name is now Butterfly. Katie is Tigerlily, Julie
is Coat-wrack. I was at home. Tigerlily was using me as a chair the whole time we hung out.
We then went to the second session. I was GOING to go to something called "Rubberwear", which focused mainly on the queer dudes.
But come on. THERE WAS LUBE TASTING. WE HAD TO GO. WE HAD TO TASTE THE LUBE. And people were coming out of that place
with condom balloons. All the dykes wanted to go just to see what was up. But by the time we found the place it was full, so we went to
"Love, Sex, Relationships + Dating." This was like a giant group therapy session. We spent the entire time talking about what we wanted
in relationships, what we thought intimacy was, what experiences we've had and why the world is what it is. Apparently the counselor
running it liked my use of imagery c:
Oh dear god. That's when I discovered the LGBT gift shop. I bought a fucking rainbow flag. A huge flag. Huge. it's on my ceiling now. I
also went out and bought three bumper stickers, a tone of ribbons and pins, hugged and old lady because she was so adorable, gave a
rainbow flower to a little kid who was there with his two gay dads, and spent the entire next 25 minutes giving out free hugs. This is how I
met Caitlyn and her friend Brittany. They are such cool people, I love them to death. Caitlyn's my twin personality wise; she acts like a
butch tough bitch, but she's such a softy and acts like a puppy all the time. The adorableness almost killed me. We're gonna hang out in
a week or so when she visits her mom up close to my town. It was like, instant best friend connection C:
So then Caitlyn, Tigerlily, Brittany and I went to the last session. Remember Momma? She was running it. She talked about how
everyone knew she was gay from the beginning, but she became a born again christian because everyone hated her life style. Hated
gays. But after a while, she was like "FUCK THIS, I'M FABULOUS" and away she went. She was so beautiful, oh my god. And come on.
You have to give a 6 foot 5 man dressed 100% in drag some goddamn credit. I couldn't stop screaming "I LOVE YOU MOMMA.
YOU'RE SO FABULOUS." Her response? "OH HONEY YOU KNOW IT. I'VE BEEN FABULOUS LONGER THAN YOU'VE KNOWN YOU
WERE QUEER." I fell in love with her XD <3
So then there was the closing performance. We went to watch this little show, Katie on one side of me and Caitlyn on the other. Oh my
god it was so great. But about half way through, Caitlyn had this thing with her ribs that flared up, and she couldn't breathe, so I just
gave her my hand to squeeze the whole time to ignore the pain. I felt so bad, and she literally collapsed on my shoulder after it was
over. I walked her out to the bus when she had to go to make sure she was okay, and I gave her my rainbow falg to make her feel better.
She gave me 10 bucks to go buy a new one cuz she felt bad, but God, the people guys. The people there made my world. I fell in love
with True Colors.
I fell in love with myself.
With my sexuality.
I fell in love with us.
You have no idea.
"Your life will be miserable, your way of life is a sin."
Honey, if those people are sinners, then let me be the biggest fucking sinner of them all.
AND I GET TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN TOMORROW.
COMPLETE WITH A MIDNIGHT DANCE AND DRAG SHOW.
FUCK YES.
**EDIT: The only bad thing about this all? I ran into my ex. The really bitchy and detrimental one to my health. She made me have a panic attack right at the beginning of the conference. 
ohmygod.
MY.
GOD.
I will take pictures tomorrow.
I swear it.
<3
I used to go to a couple gay/bi/straight groups in my area and I loved it but then the leader passed away a few years back and it just crumbled apart. Regardless, I'd love to find another group to belong to and to find like minded folks.
Sorry to hear you ran into your ex but forget that noise, you had a blast otherwise!
IMO - The only true sinners in the world are the ones who lie to themselves.
That is not a quote from anyone but myself either. I thinkeded of it. *proud of self*
But seriously. People who lie to themselves and say how evil people are with same-sex interests or people still in the closet... They know deep down what is okay, what is right. Even if it isn't for them. But religion and intolerance have turned the main stream into some anti-fag union, I swear to god. Anti-ANYTHINGDIFFERENTOMGWTF.
Now I am completely straight and always have been, not to say that I wouldn't change if my life decided I wasn't meant to be straight. But I love everyone. I don't care if they are black or hispanic or some total cracker, if they are gay, or if they hardly speak English. I'm not even tht social. But everyone is beautiful because everyone comes from the same love. The same spirits, the same earth. The same passions or pains, the same god or goddess or whatever the fuck you may believe, the same type of CELLS or whatever. Maybe aliens even did it. IDC. We are so much more separated in spirit, in love, and in understanding then we should be. you should NEVER feel awkward anywhere just because of your sexuality. I'm so happy there are places like that where everyone can share the same space and just get along.
Three Days Grace - The Good Life. Awesome song.