Heh, I just got done with one of the most and utterly messed up times in my life. Going through this horrible time in my life was awesome and I never want to do it again. I did it all to myself and there was a need to do it to myself but I did it all in secret, I'm sure there were signs of my torment and pain that I was going through but no one ever said anything or seem to notice to much, which is what I wanted. It's all over now and I'm going back to my real self someone that has been on for a long time, much to long. Although I'm sure as hell am not going to be the same and I'm happy for that because, what would of been the use of going through all those experiences that I went through. And I have to say sorry to all those that I have hurt with being the way that I was, I am on my way to getting better. Life is so screwy.