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15 years ago
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I do not want to be sad. I LOVE life and I can't find any logical reason for my emotional state. But whether I think logically or not, it doesn't help, because I'll still baww for no reason.
[EDIT] Don't make the mistake of assuming that my love of life is due to an inexperience of the bad parts. Lots of people come to that conclusion before knowing me. I want to make it VERY clear, I am serious. My emotions have been quite unstable. So please, no one assume that I am happy because I am taking the glass-half-full route. I'm just trying to be a little bit stronger than I actually am.
- I exercise regularly.
- If I am sad I will exercise harder, and write out my thoughts, and if I am feeling courageous/desperate I sometimes talk to a friend online about it.
- I force myself out of the house EVERY day and get myself some sun, see the world. And I love those casual walks.
- I make myself eat healthy food, plenty of fruit.
- I force myself to go out with friends, even though lately I don't really feel like it.
- When I'm not distracting myself with exercise or social stuff, I distract myself with happy movies. (I have a massive collection of Disney.)
- If I can't distract myself with movies I will face my emotions via my art, (but really.. I don't have much motivation for it lately. Even school. I'll go for a 'lunch break' and be gone for hours, just.. walking. The physical exercise helps, but I can't concentrate on anything.)
I know how to help myself BY myself, and these things have worked wonders for me over the years but lately I seem to be losing it. I have no doubt that I'd be allot worse off if I didn't do these things, but I need some more tips.
I don't want to talk as there is nothing to talk about. I am not ignorant enough to think I am a special snowflake. I know most of the people who read this have felt the same way at some point, and I know that many of you still do. (So saying "there there, your not the only one" is kinda pointless)
There is no reason why I am like this right now, I just am.
Don't ask me 'whats wrong?'. Because I don't have an answer.
Just give me some more tips, as these seem to be working less and less. K thx. Bai.
[EDIT] Don't make the mistake of assuming that my love of life is due to an inexperience of the bad parts. Lots of people come to that conclusion before knowing me. I want to make it VERY clear, I am serious. My emotions have been quite unstable. So please, no one assume that I am happy because I am taking the glass-half-full route. I'm just trying to be a little bit stronger than I actually am.
- I exercise regularly.
- If I am sad I will exercise harder, and write out my thoughts, and if I am feeling courageous/desperate I sometimes talk to a friend online about it.
- I force myself out of the house EVERY day and get myself some sun, see the world. And I love those casual walks.
- I make myself eat healthy food, plenty of fruit.
- I force myself to go out with friends, even though lately I don't really feel like it.
- When I'm not distracting myself with exercise or social stuff, I distract myself with happy movies. (I have a massive collection of Disney.)
- If I can't distract myself with movies I will face my emotions via my art, (but really.. I don't have much motivation for it lately. Even school. I'll go for a 'lunch break' and be gone for hours, just.. walking. The physical exercise helps, but I can't concentrate on anything.)
I know how to help myself BY myself, and these things have worked wonders for me over the years but lately I seem to be losing it. I have no doubt that I'd be allot worse off if I didn't do these things, but I need some more tips.
I don't want to talk as there is nothing to talk about. I am not ignorant enough to think I am a special snowflake. I know most of the people who read this have felt the same way at some point, and I know that many of you still do. (So saying "there there, your not the only one" is kinda pointless)
There is no reason why I am like this right now, I just am.
Don't ask me 'whats wrong?'. Because I don't have an answer.
Just give me some more tips, as these seem to be working less and less. K thx. Bai.
-huggles-
Earlier today I BAAWW'd for pretty much no reason.
So I rode my bike to calm myself down. Baaww'd some more.
Was chased by a small group of 5-ish year olds who couldn't understand why there as a 'Big Girl' crying in a demolition site, let alone why she would run away from children.
After 2 hours of hard riding, and blistered fingers, it got dark and I got a voicemail message from a very worried partner. :P
So... (and heres the real kicker)... I threw dirt on my face and rubbed some into my elbows & knees so that I could say that I fell off my bike, which would explain my swollen face and teary eyes. I just don't like putting him on the spot, because I know he feels totally powerless to help, and I end up feeling guilty and angry at myself for it.
Sometimes I list out things. I'll compliment myself on my bum, art, achievements. Its all nice, and it works a bit to boost the ego, but it wears off pretty fast. lol
Everyone I have ever met who has been on anti-depressants has hated it. For me that will be a last resort and i'll only go on them and see a professional if I feel like my emotions are going to be harmful to myself, physically. It's weird. Its like there are two me's in this. The emotional me, and the logical me. I am lucky that even while I am upset I still have that logical voice in me telling me not to do anything stupid. I really am lucky to have that.
Now about this tea... zomg, I love tea! I'll have to do some research into that.
I know there is a shop in the city that sells something like that. It is meant to suppress negative emotion. Kinda lot pot I suppose, but legal and I won't fuck up my lungs xD
I'm far too stubborn and proud to just ever give up on creativity. Its just a matter of being in the right mood some of the time.
I've been keeping myself socially busy as much as possible, because I've heard that it is one of the best ways to overcome 'it'.
The downfall is that I'm all booked up until Monday. :P
Spikey can go walkies for a couple of hours while we do girly arty things. ^_^
Hugs
Taluthus
These holidays mightn't be good for me. Two weeks without having to get up for school... mm. I can see that going badly. The only way I can avoid going down hill is to be super-strict with myself. I'll just have to wake up early and set myself a schedule. Accomplish things that I've wanted to do- Physically and mentally. I might borrow some of my brothers medical books and re-learn some of the Bio stuff I used to love so much. And there are a few commissions I'll be able to complete these holidays for sure! :D
I know I won't fix it, but it will be a good distraction for my mind while I'm on my break. Hopefully keeping my mind and body active will act as a nice brick wall for a little while. :)