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15 years ago
Names of pride .... and shame. So many to show more? or to hide behind? I don't know the answer. I suspect there isn't one, that is to say, one single answer. And as Gertrude Stein is often quoted, "That's the answer." *smiles*
There is a cautionary tale in this about choosing a user name, that is, a name to refer to the creator, as the name of a character, especially when considering publication out side of this intimate and immediate forum ... yet that is a rant for another time.
I think what bothers me is a feeling of ... another world, another person, another ... life perhaps? And I can't handle the one I have >.< No, just that it feels like hiding. Now it is certainly true that there are things in my favorites list that my grandmother does NOT need to see ... but then she wouldn't be looking either. I am, by nature, a fairly private person anyway, but this ... feels like privacy becomes shame. And shame is fiercer and more soul-draining control than even fear ....
Not that much changes, at least in any obvious way. I have been scribbling "Muttering Mutt" in my notebook as if it means something, though. At any rate, call me what you like, "just don't call me late for dinner," as my father would say.
...but my name is Jesse.
There is a cautionary tale in this about choosing a user name, that is, a name to refer to the creator, as the name of a character, especially when considering publication out side of this intimate and immediate forum ... yet that is a rant for another time.
I think what bothers me is a feeling of ... another world, another person, another ... life perhaps? And I can't handle the one I have >.< No, just that it feels like hiding. Now it is certainly true that there are things in my favorites list that my grandmother does NOT need to see ... but then she wouldn't be looking either. I am, by nature, a fairly private person anyway, but this ... feels like privacy becomes shame. And shame is fiercer and more soul-draining control than even fear ....
Not that much changes, at least in any obvious way. I have been scribbling "Muttering Mutt" in my notebook as if it means something, though. At any rate, call me what you like, "just don't call me late for dinner," as my father would say.
...but my name is Jesse.
*gives him a big big hug...
there are things your grandmother would not want you to know so that makes you even.
when playing the 'remember when' game with my sister, (she knows all the family history) she alluded to two things about our beloved grandmother - that she had an affair with the town doctor whom she assisted in local births, and that she might possibly have drowned a few babies who did not turn out right (much inbreeding in the small rural towns) to put them out of their misery. We are speaking of the 1920's when medicine was not much more advanced than during the Civil war.
different times - different societies - different rules
you are loved....
V.