Yea... spent awhile sick as fuck prolly something like i dont know.. namonia? no idea what it was but i was coughing and sick and it sucked.. but yea...

anyways guys prolly dont care.. its alright, kinda having a anger problem as well... anyone heard of 'Lead' in First person shooters? its like you have to predict where thay are going to be.. its stupid as fucking hell.. been playing a game thats pissing me off couse people can kill me in two shots sometimes even one, and yet here i am emptying clip after clip of shotgun at there face and no death.. now.. this is where leading comes in, you have to know where thay are going to move and shoot ahead of them... which is bullshit... no one should have to do that, i mean like in CSS (counterstrike source) you can drag bullets which is a hell of alot better then trying to predict the future and shoot where thay are going to be.. hmm maybe im just ranting.. at this rate though... im only going to get super depressed if i keep playing this game.. but unfortunatly.. its the only one of its kind... yet.. suppose to come out with a secondone with no lead which would be... SOOOOO much better.. anyways all this depression.. think im going to go get drunk or something, but yea... about my art and stuff... NO idea when im going to fall back into that.. its just... i dont know.. the more i play games that piss me off the more i wanna play them to own at them.. its a vicious cycle.. pretty bad... ugh..

but yea.. hmm... might find some rp rather then moping around.. dont know yet.. eitherway imma go find some of feel good juice.