God I work so slow nowadays. I swear I used to be so much faster. I feel like I'm putting a lot more work and effort into my commissions, but jebus christmas it just seems to take me ages. I guess I only mention it because I have a problem with it. I know I've asked you guys in the past how long you're willing to wait on a commission and I was very strongly shocked by just how long most of you are willing to wait.

I have an unreasonably harsh expectation when it comes to time of projects and I often disappoint myself. I don't know if anyone's ever complained. I know there have been a few commissions that have taken over a year. That to me makes me angry, at myself. I would HATE to wait that long. Part of my hesitation with taking commissions right now is directly related to my work ethic and my increasing inability to perform to the standards I've set within. I don't know if it's just the increasing demands and stress of my life, or my frustration with trying to set myself up to do this consistently for an extra income source, but whatever the reason, I just find myself tied up in knots and stressed out.

Gah, whatever I eventually come to, I hope it can involve a nice balance where I can be professional in my craft and services but also enjoy what I do. For now I'm just farther convinced that I need to take a break after I clear my queue and step back and examine things and take a little time back for myself. I'm hoping you guys are still able to enjoy the art I make and I hope I'll be able to make art that people enjoy. One of these days I'll figure things out enough that I can quit worrying over them. =)