I'm feeling negative again today, lost that jack and Francis contest (wish I knew why I lost (entervoid has spoiled me with telling me how and why I fucked up)), and I can't seem to churn out BlueMage's commission quick enough as I'm struggling with the background. Now I'm left wondering if doing commissions is really worth it in the end. Sure I got some cash that I used to purchase medication and food, but now I've got $4 not counting what I've earned from the last commission, but that's going to be used up instantly. I'm thinking of just refunding the last payment I received and closing down commissions as I'm just not happy at all right now, and a lot of people who wanted something have shown a lack of interest.

Maybe it was my speed at which I produced their work (one picture every week), or maybe it's a bit too much to ask for payment up front. I've been way too lazy and I easily fall back into my bad habits. Well, anyway, I think I'm going to close up shop now, sorry to the others who were wanting something, Misty_crom, I'll have your payment refunded. Emily, I'm sorry I'm not in the mood for commissions anymore. Everybody else, I'm sorry. If you feel angry at me for doing this, then I'm sorry again, furaffinity is not my top priority in life right now and doing these commissions is slowly starting to make me feel uneasy. This next picture is going to be my LAST commission as it's already halfway finished.

Back onto the contest, did I lose because I didn't have good colors? I experimented with the green apple color scheme, but that didn't seem to work out. What did I do wrong anyway? Maybe it was the anatomy, I don't sketch often actually, that's another bad habit that's sunk deep into me and won't leave. Maybe there were multiple factors against me that I was unaware of. I feel like I'm being a bad sportsman here.







I think I'm done typing right now. Cya later.