Well, It looks like I'm finally heading north. My Calgary trip is only for three days but its going to feel like forever. I hardly ever spent the night away from my mate. We have been together going on five years now and its just not something we don't do. It's a comfort to know he is there especially when I awake at night and reach over to touch him. It's going to been real hard to be away but I guess I have no choice. I think the real problem is the plane flights. It's a 4 hrs plane ride there and 4 hrs back ie. no sleep. I usually can't sleep on planes and its really silly of me but I am slightly scared. I have flown countless time before, both commercially and military but there is always that what if. I know that I am being childish but it's taken me all my life to find him and get to the point of happiness. And now to make things more difficult we have recently added a new friend/mate. We both love him and he is learning how to return that love. It is very complex but I think we all have something to give to each other. So, the thought of loosing this thru any means is very disconcerting. Well, I will get up the courage to tell them both my fears and helpful they can calm me down enough to enjoy to trip.