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Of Nihilism and Insomnia
15 years ago
In a world with no sound, their cries go unheard;
The Reality of Life, becomes totally absurd.
The counting of time, is considered a crime;
And the money one earned, is not worth a lone dime.
So here they will lie, for the rest of the night;
Their bodies remain still, in darkness and in light...
But don't be afraid, for it will happen to you,
For all will stop, as your body turns blue
-Unknown
The Reality of Life, becomes totally absurd.
The counting of time, is considered a crime;
And the money one earned, is not worth a lone dime.
So here they will lie, for the rest of the night;
Their bodies remain still, in darkness and in light...
But don't be afraid, for it will happen to you,
For all will stop, as your body turns blue
-Unknown
It's 2:30 am and I cannot sleep, I just saw a movie and most of the content related to me.
I've been a Nihilist ever since I found out about it, being exposed to the media and the mindless garbage at a very young and impressionable age changed me. I'm the very product of tv at a young age.
Seeing the grim reality of life and the fantasy life from television made me wish I could live there, it also may be the reason for my furry sexuality, as seeing anthromorphic animals in a society being so perfect and wonderful, it made me yearn for that existance instead of this.
To tell the truth, I think the turning point of losing my faith in humanity happend 9/11, I was young then but learning about who and why made me realize that if that mindset continued then nothing will ever change.
Still can't sleep, and my mind is still racing, thinking how rediculious life has gotten since it began, hasn't knowledge made things complicated enough? Why build an economy, why build a country, why build religion, why create science?
I always wanted to believe in a God, something to look forward to in an afterlife. Because I'd much rather be there than here. But is there really one, and if so why did he allow us to exist for so long, you'd think with an infestation this big he'd exterminate it.
It's funny, when I was 13 I vowed to find the meaning of life, and when I was 18 I found out what it was, then I felt so stupid because it was so obvious. The truest meaning is to pass on your genes, that's it, once you do that your existance is useless.
Happiness is only something you make to get over the fact you may never complete this task or you already did, but then again all feelings are chemicals generated in your brain and can be completely manipulated, so do we ever really feel them? Do we really feel love, fear, anger, sadness and happiness?
Don't even listen to this bullshit rant, it will probably depress you or something.
Goodnight.
I've been a Nihilist ever since I found out about it, being exposed to the media and the mindless garbage at a very young and impressionable age changed me. I'm the very product of tv at a young age.
Seeing the grim reality of life and the fantasy life from television made me wish I could live there, it also may be the reason for my furry sexuality, as seeing anthromorphic animals in a society being so perfect and wonderful, it made me yearn for that existance instead of this.
To tell the truth, I think the turning point of losing my faith in humanity happend 9/11, I was young then but learning about who and why made me realize that if that mindset continued then nothing will ever change.
Still can't sleep, and my mind is still racing, thinking how rediculious life has gotten since it began, hasn't knowledge made things complicated enough? Why build an economy, why build a country, why build religion, why create science?
I always wanted to believe in a God, something to look forward to in an afterlife. Because I'd much rather be there than here. But is there really one, and if so why did he allow us to exist for so long, you'd think with an infestation this big he'd exterminate it.
It's funny, when I was 13 I vowed to find the meaning of life, and when I was 18 I found out what it was, then I felt so stupid because it was so obvious. The truest meaning is to pass on your genes, that's it, once you do that your existance is useless.
Happiness is only something you make to get over the fact you may never complete this task or you already did, but then again all feelings are chemicals generated in your brain and can be completely manipulated, so do we ever really feel them? Do we really feel love, fear, anger, sadness and happiness?
Don't even listen to this bullshit rant, it will probably depress you or something.
Goodnight.
though different i may feel about it compared to you, i agree with everything you have said.
having decided that theres nothing i can do, and accept it, it doesn't bring me down as much any more. i just go with it, even if it is pointless. as long as the things i enjoy make me happy enough to want to carry on, i will.
but i feel ya.
This basically sums up how I feel about life as well.