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15 years ago
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This gallery is now closed. I will be deleting everything within the next week. Sorry.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oFkSMHle8-M
In a way, I do hate you. You forced me to believe you. All these years, you told me you were sure we'd be together. That there would be our kiss, and our nights curled up together. And then you took it all away. After breaking down my skepticism for thirty-six months, getting me to trust in you. ..And you tore it right out of my fingers.
And you said I had 'no faith in you'? I put everything in you. Everything. Those weren't your words. That wasn't you. But you don't have the fucking human decency to call me on your own, without your little loli-princess holding your hand and spoon-feeding you her logic. Did you not think that calling me from the other woman's phone was an insult?
And don't you dare make me the villain, for wanting a love that's my own. For having a basic human need.
And the worst part of it is, I'm not going to recover. I was damaged when you found me, and I'm even more broken now. I have nothing. Literally. I can't role-play to ease the hurt, because every character I made was for you, or tied to you. I can't draw, because all of my art came from your mind. I can't sing, because every little piece of music on this monster I shared with you at some point.
Now, I have to walk through one of the scariest parts of my life alone. I don't know what's going to happen with me. If I'll find a new home, if my health is going to be okay.
And frankly, I don't want it to. I want it to be terminal, so I don't have to deal with this anymore. You won't be a bad story for the future, because there is none.
I love you. And I hope it burns you up at night.
But I just wanted to come tell you that it's going to be alright.
It is. It can feel like an insane thought at the moment, but it will be alright. You'll get over with it eventually. Some day you'll just realize that you can trust people at the level which can be classified enough, you can get to know people without feeling that they of course want to hurt you at some point, that they have no spine nor could they be nice or wise. You'll see again that that's not it. There really are good people on this planet, as impossible as it can feel at the worst moment. Good people who deserve your company.
If you don't believe me, look at https://www.givesmehope.com and maybe you'll believe the hundreds of people there.
Sure, I'm still lonely..still alone..but there is always hope..~always~
I spend days doing just..nothing..because I feel alone..but in order to change this..one has to believe that they can change it. You ~can~ change it, but you have to want it...
I don't trust people, myself...but I do have close friends that I have learned to trust over the years....
If you need someone to talk to, hit me up on yahoo, msn, or AIM...I may not be the smartest in the world, but I am a good listener.