I feel so...so angry and betrayed right now its not even funny. Honestly I've never ever felt this way before and even now I'm still trembling terribly over what's transpired.

Why do so called friends do that? I mean, I don't know about you guys but I'm a believer of the bro/girl code, as in, you don't go dating your friend's ex/whatever if there's still touchy blood between them. I'd have at least thought you'd wait a long time till the air was cleared.

But no.

I purposely ask one of my best friends if she and my ex were sweet on one and other, because if they were then I even stated there and then that I couldn't deal with that, and that I'd have to cut ties with them both. The reason I asked was because my ex told me that she had strong feelings for her and that they returned so I had to know (this coming from someone who cruelly told me they never liked my body shape or humour at all when my friend is almost exactly the same in both areas).

And a bit of background before I go any further- during my rocky period and eventual breakup with my ex, my so called best friend was there giving me support and she could see just how shitty things were and how badly my ex was treating/behaving towards me to the point she saw her for who she really was. So all in all, this girl who has been my friend for well over 7 years now has been like my rock through all of this and helping me to heal over what I considered at the time a serious relationship ( we were together for well over a year, and from the very beginning I'd asked multiple times if she was sure about things because sometimes, relationships can be difficult- and she assured me she was fine with everything which turned out to be an absolute lie).

Back to the story though, and my friend outright tells me not to worry about anything because with the distance between them its not like anything could happen, so she pretty much pacified me into thinking that there was nothing there at all (and I was still under the belief that she was with her current girlfriend too- apparently not and she kept me in the dark about that.)

However I only just learned that she lied to me, that they do both have strong feelings for one and other and that they were trying to keep me from hanging out with them (we play mmos together and mic etc) just so they could have alone time with one and other.

Needless to say when I was told pretty much that my presence wasn't wanted all the time so they could 'be together' so to speak, I flipped- I felt so heavily betrayed and I still feel like an utter fool. All this time it felt like I was played for an idiot so they could hook up with their 'strong feelings' for one and other. And it sickens me to think that all this time we've been friends, all this time that she saw how vindictive my ex could be and how I felt about things that in the end she appears to choose her.

What did I ever do wrong? My ex calls me immature for pretty much blowing up and yelling all sorts of profanity at them to the point I've cut all ties with both- I can't deal with people who do such shitty things like that to people they supposedly care enough about to be friends. My so called friend was talking through her via mic (she wouldn't even face me herself god dammit) that she valued my friendship and that she wanted to keep it, but how can that be when she violated everything that was between us like that?

Am I really in the wrong for all this?

I just want the hurting to stop, and I know this probably sounds over the top emo and everything but what did I ever do to deserve this other than try to love someone?