First thing, to the two of you who did offer support and comfort in my last journal, thank you, I think right there is a testament to why I feel so lonely like I'm going all this alone. But to know that at least you care enough about me to say something is awesome, and it won't go unreturned.

I also want to thank the other two commenters who left words of advice. I will certainly process it and figure out what I can possibly do to head in that direction.

Things are starting an upward pace though. One of the big stress things was taken care of and thank whatever deities are listening, it actually didn't turn out badly.

But I think that sometime very soon, I'm going to be leaving here. The response, or lack there of to my last journal speaks louder than anything anyone could say to me. I don't think I'm wanted here. Or at a minimum, nobody really cares.

I haven't chosen my path yet, it will take a great deal of meditation till I find it. But, to the very very few of you who do care, know that you guys will not be left behind nor forgotten by this panther.