i don't let people proof read my work because it doesn't feel like my work anymore after someone has proofread it..i have ONLY ONCE let someone proof read a chapter and while it was better grammar and spelling-wise the entire chapter felt foreign to me..like it wasn't my work anymore...i have a particular way i write things and when i write it's because i am inspired..not because i have to or to show off...i improve thanks to my readers critic and comments..which is why i have NEVER taken a commission and probably never will...when i write it comes from my imagination and my love for writing...each character i create is it's own special person and has their own unique characteristics and skills...i have a bond with my stories i write...it's sort of hard to explain and put into words but i'll try. When i write...it's like i am writing someone's real story...how they lived it and how it happened EXACTLY. now when you read my stories you'll probably go"like pikachus really exist! gimme a break!"...but think about this....what is our world? are we really alone in the universe? or are there multiple universes where things that are fantasy here are real there and vise-versa for that realm? if you ponder this for too long you'll probably hurt your head trying to see what i'm getting at so i'll clear it up for ya. When i write something...i can see EVERYTHING that happens as if it's happening at that exact moment in front of me...as if in some way i am seeing through the eyes of them and seeing how they live their lives. In essence i am connected...i feel what they feel...what they are thinking...there have been many times when i am writing a death scene i myself am in tears as i write it...sometimes even before it's typed out...there are many stories i HAVE NOT published and for reasons that are a little too personal to say. also when i give this line:

"i can never write the same thing twice...it bugs the living shit out of me when i try to rewrite the same thing because i either want to change this here or that there..but if i did it would totally throw off the entire plot and that's the dilemma. so if i did rewrite it..it would be the same characters but a COMPLETELY different story all together..and i don't want to do that...^^; hence why i have not done a rewrite of any of my stories that i have written."

That's not the real reason..it's only a surface excuse to why i am not rewriting or editing it....the real reason is above....but when i write...i feel connected to that world..as if that person is trying to tell me"their story"..like i said..it's very hard to put into words exactly what it's like...Now one thing i will clear up is this"How i went from Straight A student to straight A slut" IS NOT inspired by the above reason....that particular work is of my own imagination and ideas...then again i'm not quite sure about that either..it may have happened in some other realm...it may not..but at this point i don't think so...anyways i am still working on the story when i have the time so if you've taken the time to read this...please comment! i would like to know what people think of my inspiration to write^^