I still haven't recovered from Titus death, I have temporarily left Canada to get close to my mother in France, who has a few months left to live...

I was still having some positiveness, was still looking forward to attend Anthrocon. New friends showed up.

But now, I'm getting involved in some drama that cuts my mood from anything really. It's probably something small, but it's the very thing I did not need right now.
I was looking forward to spend some time at AC with two of my favorite rpers, even got them to join me in my hotel room. I introduce them together, they fall in love with each other right away and I'm feeling like I'm being pushed away now.

Probably stupid, I don't want to make anybody feel bad, but I think it's understandable if I don't overly feel like letting them share my room anymore. Heck I don't feel that urge to go to AC anymore.

Now, as a result, those two friends feel down and may not feel like going to AC either. Because of my self-centered vision of things, I spread my drama around, I am drowning, I am struggling to find positiveness as I always do, but it's like everytimes I stand back up from something that puts me down, something else comes up and pins me on the ground stronger...

My only positiveness in this is my wolf, Delmir, who I know I have always had and will always have. But as good a friend he is, we don't share anything intimate together and that's why I was putting lots of hope in this AC, in those new friends. I had never been looking for any stuff like that before, until Titus got me all curious about it, before he passed away...

I'm feeling guilty, because I'm focusing on this drama rather than focusing on the very person I should be focusing on right now: My dear mother. But I guess you cannot control your feelings.

I want things to be made simpler. Please, people, if anybody as a simple solution for me to all of this, share it with me, I need to know.

Thanks to those who would have had the courage to read through all of this.