This has nothing to do with art really. It's rare I make posts of this nature. But I need to get this out some how. So unless you're really bored no point to continue.

I'm losing it. It started about 2 or 3 weeks ago when my mate Rally's car died. Found it would cost a cool $1,000 to fix which we just don't have. At work we have picked up drastically. So I figured I could try to cover it. By Thursday I ended with 48 hours. We're working 12 hours a day and only got my car. But I could handle this. I don't get to see my other mate Shadow at all and hardly see any of the rest of my family, but things were working. I just got to hold out.

Work wont ease off until July, until then its 12 hours a day 6 to 7 days a week. Ok. Just hang in there.. But thats too easy. My car broke down on Rally on his way to work. He was able to get it up and goin enough to get him there. Now I got to get it repaired.

I'm not looking for pity. But I feel like I'm breaking apart. I'm depressed, it's hard to see the light at the end. I've been trying to do that, but something else happens. Rally can not afford to miss any days of work, my job has consumed my life and I can't do anything about it other than quit.

I can't de-stress. I have no time to myself. I feel like I need to cry but I'm holding back. Quite frankly I don't know what to do. I guess just hang in there. Theres nothing that can be done. God I hate this..