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Ten things meme~
15 years ago
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Stolen from kairithekat:
Ten things I wish I could say to people:
1. I don't know why I put up with your shit; you're hurting me more then you will ever know
2. You ruined my childhood and I hope you rot in hell for making my adult life so hard too
3. You're crazy and even though I'm there to help you doesn't mean I'm going to be your best pal
4. Leave me and my love alone and understand us when we tell you what we're going through
5. Even though you took me in, sometimes you're really annoying and I need my space
6. You don't even want to understand the at least 3 mental problems I have
7. I want you to be a good man and when you get older save sex for the one who means the most, not the first person who is willing
8. You fucking drive me insane and all you care about is yourself
9. It's hard for me to believe it when you say you're sorry
10. You saved me from a horrible situation only to let me rot in a different one
(11. I love you and wish you would save me and protect me from everything)
Nine things about myself:
1. I'm going through the hardest part of my life
2. I love my car but still owe $6000; it makes me sad that the bank actually owns my car
3. Sometimes I wish my morals weren't so high but it's who I am
4. I'm finally starting to draw again!
5. I love piercings and stretching my lobes is one of my favorite "hobbies"
6. I've worked at UPS for a year tomorrow :)
7. I'm only 20 but I feel much older
8. I just recently, MAGICALLY, lost 5-ish pounds!!
9. I feel so worn out and numb
Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Don't lie to me
2. Make me feel like I'm the world to you
3. Understand me
4. Do lots of little cute things that make me go "awww"
5. Respect my morals and even if they aren't your own, don't put stress on us by crossing those lines; things won't work if we're not equal on issues
6. Help me when I need it, and when I specifically tell you I need it
7. RELAX and be open-minded
8. Don't be a jerk
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Fiance
2. Huge relationship issues
3. Anxiety/mental problems
4. My car; paying it off, modifying it (muffler next!)
5. Piercings
6. Work
7. Everything else
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Play on the computer for like 2 hours
2. Shower, coz UPS makes me stinky
3. Brush teef, clean my plugs/earskins
4. Maybe play on computer more, or read, or draw
5. Listen to music
6. Go to sleep?
Five places I want to visit:
1. England; that's where my family originates (my grandma is English)
2. Germany
3. More of Washington state
4. Don't care because I don't really care about travel
5. See above
Four things I'm wearing right now:
1. Work shorts that are now WAY TOO BIG and almost fall down
2. Brown shirt
3. Dirty green hoody
4. Below-the-ankle socks
Three musical artists that I listen to often:
1. RECENTLY... a lot of AFI
2. Gorillaz
3. Queens of the Stone Age
Two things I want to do before I die:
1. Marry my fiance and have a wonderful life together
2. Be able to do something in therapy/psychology and help people with issues like the ones that have plagued me since childhood
One confession:
1. I have a tough outer shell. Most people know me as an extremely positive person, very kind, thoughtful, and strong. But underneath I'm experiencing such pain that I've been feeling suicidal off and on recently. I have deep anxiety problems from 19 years of abuse, and even more problems from my current situation. I'm going insane and have daily problems keeping myself together and being able to function. I still have some hope, but hope has been hard to come by recently.
Ten things I wish I could say to people:
1. I don't know why I put up with your shit; you're hurting me more then you will ever know
2. You ruined my childhood and I hope you rot in hell for making my adult life so hard too
3. You're crazy and even though I'm there to help you doesn't mean I'm going to be your best pal
4. Leave me and my love alone and understand us when we tell you what we're going through
5. Even though you took me in, sometimes you're really annoying and I need my space
6. You don't even want to understand the at least 3 mental problems I have
7. I want you to be a good man and when you get older save sex for the one who means the most, not the first person who is willing
8. You fucking drive me insane and all you care about is yourself
9. It's hard for me to believe it when you say you're sorry
10. You saved me from a horrible situation only to let me rot in a different one
(11. I love you and wish you would save me and protect me from everything)
Nine things about myself:
1. I'm going through the hardest part of my life
2. I love my car but still owe $6000; it makes me sad that the bank actually owns my car
3. Sometimes I wish my morals weren't so high but it's who I am
4. I'm finally starting to draw again!
5. I love piercings and stretching my lobes is one of my favorite "hobbies"
6. I've worked at UPS for a year tomorrow :)
7. I'm only 20 but I feel much older
8. I just recently, MAGICALLY, lost 5-ish pounds!!
9. I feel so worn out and numb
Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Don't lie to me
2. Make me feel like I'm the world to you
3. Understand me
4. Do lots of little cute things that make me go "awww"
5. Respect my morals and even if they aren't your own, don't put stress on us by crossing those lines; things won't work if we're not equal on issues
6. Help me when I need it, and when I specifically tell you I need it
7. RELAX and be open-minded
8. Don't be a jerk
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Fiance
2. Huge relationship issues
3. Anxiety/mental problems
4. My car; paying it off, modifying it (muffler next!)
5. Piercings
6. Work
7. Everything else
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Play on the computer for like 2 hours
2. Shower, coz UPS makes me stinky
3. Brush teef, clean my plugs/earskins
4. Maybe play on computer more, or read, or draw
5. Listen to music
6. Go to sleep?
Five places I want to visit:
1. England; that's where my family originates (my grandma is English)
2. Germany
3. More of Washington state
4. Don't care because I don't really care about travel
5. See above
Four things I'm wearing right now:
1. Work shorts that are now WAY TOO BIG and almost fall down
2. Brown shirt
3. Dirty green hoody
4. Below-the-ankle socks
Three musical artists that I listen to often:
1. RECENTLY... a lot of AFI
2. Gorillaz
3. Queens of the Stone Age
Two things I want to do before I die:
1. Marry my fiance and have a wonderful life together
2. Be able to do something in therapy/psychology and help people with issues like the ones that have plagued me since childhood
One confession:
1. I have a tough outer shell. Most people know me as an extremely positive person, very kind, thoughtful, and strong. But underneath I'm experiencing such pain that I've been feeling suicidal off and on recently. I have deep anxiety problems from 19 years of abuse, and even more problems from my current situation. I'm going insane and have daily problems keeping myself together and being able to function. I still have some hope, but hope has been hard to come by recently.
