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On my mind
15 years ago
Warning: Rather emoish journal ahead.
You know, I've been thinking recently, who really knows anything about me? Aside from like, maybe two or three people? Even then I don't think they know a great deal about me other then some of the basics.
On top of that, it gets tiring not having anyone really seeming to want to poke me to chat or anything. More often then not I'm just hanging around or poking at someone else to talk with. Which does get a bit depressing at times, even more so when theres usually some 30-40 people online my buddy list at any one time.
Which, in a nutshell, generally makes me feel rather unappreciated. Since just about no one ever tries to get a hold of me, and those who do have my phone number virtually never text or call. It generally seems that for people to want to talk to someone, they have to be either popular/famous, or an artist. Since writers are quite rather under appreciated. Which is part of the reason why I don't bother with trying to write anything anymore. Why put effort into something like that if no one is even going to comment? Much less 1/4th of the people viewing the story, if even that, favorite it?
Then again, I rather detest fame and popularity in a ways, since then everyone is always trying to bug at you. Or try to proclaim themselves your biggest fan and trying to be your best buddy. Makes me rather wonder why people think it would be so great to be famous anyways. Even more so out in the real world, with all that paparazzi, millions of fans watching and listening to your every move. It would just be maddening to me.
But again, I just find it rather a bit upsetting that no one ever really cares to try to talk to me. Even more so when its a few people I do really like to talk with, despite the difficulties with time zones and schedule differences. And whats the point as well in calling someone a friend, if you and they don't really know anything about each other? Other then a few of the basics?
So yeah, thats about everything on my mind thats been bugging me I guess. Just tired of no one wanting to talk to me for the most part and no furry friends to really hang out with in my area either.
Edit: Also, anyone going to Rocky Mountain Fur Con?
You know, I've been thinking recently, who really knows anything about me? Aside from like, maybe two or three people? Even then I don't think they know a great deal about me other then some of the basics.
On top of that, it gets tiring not having anyone really seeming to want to poke me to chat or anything. More often then not I'm just hanging around or poking at someone else to talk with. Which does get a bit depressing at times, even more so when theres usually some 30-40 people online my buddy list at any one time.
Which, in a nutshell, generally makes me feel rather unappreciated. Since just about no one ever tries to get a hold of me, and those who do have my phone number virtually never text or call. It generally seems that for people to want to talk to someone, they have to be either popular/famous, or an artist. Since writers are quite rather under appreciated. Which is part of the reason why I don't bother with trying to write anything anymore. Why put effort into something like that if no one is even going to comment? Much less 1/4th of the people viewing the story, if even that, favorite it?
Then again, I rather detest fame and popularity in a ways, since then everyone is always trying to bug at you. Or try to proclaim themselves your biggest fan and trying to be your best buddy. Makes me rather wonder why people think it would be so great to be famous anyways. Even more so out in the real world, with all that paparazzi, millions of fans watching and listening to your every move. It would just be maddening to me.
But again, I just find it rather a bit upsetting that no one ever really cares to try to talk to me. Even more so when its a few people I do really like to talk with, despite the difficulties with time zones and schedule differences. And whats the point as well in calling someone a friend, if you and they don't really know anything about each other? Other then a few of the basics?
So yeah, thats about everything on my mind thats been bugging me I guess. Just tired of no one wanting to talk to me for the most part and no furry friends to really hang out with in my area either.
Edit: Also, anyone going to Rocky Mountain Fur Con?
Though it doesnt help that if I do see ye, your busy and I dont want to be a bother to a friend such as yourself. And in that respect we are rather alike. Neither of us likes to be a bother to anyone and such. As for your being a writer, I actually appreciate you MORE for that. As you know. Mostly cause Im one of those rare people that LOVES to read. Hell, I even have a couple of your REALLY REALLY REALLY old stories saved somewhere still. The Escape at Jurassic Park duo. Anyways. If it makes ye feel better, I will try to get in contact more with ye. Though part of my problem is that I also forget to check my IM lists for who is on a lot.
*sighs* I'd depressing how much I've fallen out of touch with most of the FOOF gang. I just caught up with Myrm last night for the first time since last year's AC, for example. Hell, even Jag, now that we're not living together anymore, never seems to have much time to talk.
But the point is, I do care about you, and I'm sorry I've been a little lax in showing it, not just to you, but to many others as well.
If you want to drop something my way, I'll keep you busy to talk to casually. : >