as of late, my mind has been racing, and since I got my memories back (I lost a lot of my memories for a long time) my memory is good. I hardly ever forget events when brought to mind, and with my mind racing I've been having all sorts of mental conflicts. also, it's hard for me to let things go. if someone causes me problems I can get over it and trust them, as well as forgive them. but I don't forget and I can never fully trust someone after that. if it comes to mind I have those negative feeling about them for quite a while. on top of that, my roommate (who I'm an unpaid caregiver for) has been going through a few things, like an asshole neighbor for example, so I'm supposed to be there for him. I'm thinking maybe I should visit my parents for a bit, but right now I need to stick around here because there are some things that my roommate needs me here for. not to mention he wants me to go to school and a job imediately. I want to do both of those, and am trying, but it's not easy. he's unable to work but seems to not be able to understand that it's hard to get a job.

I honestly feel like I don't have anyone to support me right now. since I can't go anywhere, and I have limited use of computer, and I can't tell my family about these things.

I feels so alone, and yet I wish I could be alone for a bit...

I would rant to get my stress out, like this, but I can't say most of what's bugging me, so it doesn't help much.