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Journal Entry #16
15 years ago
Link = Me, AF = Anonymous Friend
AF: What's wrong Linky? Why you all mopey an sluggish?
Link: Terry thinks Im playing games with him. Based on what he said I believe its because I didn't leave for Florida. I am seriously confused as what to think of it. I mean, I tried telling him that I am scared. That I am terrified of what will happen after school. But I dont think he accepts it or understands it.
AF: Why do you keep trying to be this guys friend if it keeps slamming you in the face? You need to stop and just let it go. If he wanted you around you would be, if he wanted you as a friend he wouldn't have reason to think you are playing games.
Link: I know, I know. But you dont understand. He is something special bro. Like, that warmth or fuzzy feeling you only got when your best friend laughed at your joke or helped you up off the ground.
AF: STOP! Stop there. Seriously man, don't get all emo furry mushy on me.
Link: I am not. I am just saying is all. He has something no one else does.
AF: Whats that exactly?
Link: The ability to calm me, the ability to make me feel safe, and the ability to bring my guard down. No one else has done it. He just gives off a vibe to me, I can't explain it very well, but he has it. I really just wanted to fuck him after he first messaged me cause it had been so long. But after getting to know him a bit I liked him. More importantly, I respected him. After awhile I found I could trust him too.
AF: You don't trust me? I am hurt man, seriously.
Link: Shut up you big baby. Of course I do. But its different in this case. He is not my "bro", you are. He however was more like a bf than a bro. I sorta looked at him like an older brother as odd as that is.
AF: LOL Didn't you two fuck???
Link: Stepbrother asshole... Stepbrother. I dont play that game and you know it.
AF: Alright alright. Chill out. Just teasing a little is all. Anyways, I am crashing out man. My advice, give it up bro. If he wants your friendship/sex or whatever he will come looking for it. You don't always have to have let yourself get hooked. Now an then its good to throw your line out and be the fisher, rather than the fish.
Link: I suppose. Night bro, ttyt after class.
AF: Night dude. And fucking smile you mutt. :-P *pets*
Well, maybe he is right. The old saying does go: If you love it let it go, its right it will come home. Or something like that....
Anyways, guess its time to sit, listen, and watch. Suppose I should have done this from the start but I am a fool. so sue me. LOL
*smiles big*
AF: What's wrong Linky? Why you all mopey an sluggish?
Link: Terry thinks Im playing games with him. Based on what he said I believe its because I didn't leave for Florida. I am seriously confused as what to think of it. I mean, I tried telling him that I am scared. That I am terrified of what will happen after school. But I dont think he accepts it or understands it.
AF: Why do you keep trying to be this guys friend if it keeps slamming you in the face? You need to stop and just let it go. If he wanted you around you would be, if he wanted you as a friend he wouldn't have reason to think you are playing games.
Link: I know, I know. But you dont understand. He is something special bro. Like, that warmth or fuzzy feeling you only got when your best friend laughed at your joke or helped you up off the ground.
AF: STOP! Stop there. Seriously man, don't get all emo furry mushy on me.
Link: I am not. I am just saying is all. He has something no one else does.
AF: Whats that exactly?
Link: The ability to calm me, the ability to make me feel safe, and the ability to bring my guard down. No one else has done it. He just gives off a vibe to me, I can't explain it very well, but he has it. I really just wanted to fuck him after he first messaged me cause it had been so long. But after getting to know him a bit I liked him. More importantly, I respected him. After awhile I found I could trust him too.
AF: You don't trust me? I am hurt man, seriously.
Link: Shut up you big baby. Of course I do. But its different in this case. He is not my "bro", you are. He however was more like a bf than a bro. I sorta looked at him like an older brother as odd as that is.
AF: LOL Didn't you two fuck???
Link: Stepbrother asshole... Stepbrother. I dont play that game and you know it.
AF: Alright alright. Chill out. Just teasing a little is all. Anyways, I am crashing out man. My advice, give it up bro. If he wants your friendship/sex or whatever he will come looking for it. You don't always have to have let yourself get hooked. Now an then its good to throw your line out and be the fisher, rather than the fish.
Link: I suppose. Night bro, ttyt after class.
AF: Night dude. And fucking smile you mutt. :-P *pets*
Well, maybe he is right. The old saying does go: If you love it let it go, its right it will come home. Or something like that....
Anyways, guess its time to sit, listen, and watch. Suppose I should have done this from the start but I am a fool. so sue me. LOL
*smiles big*
As for you, I am sorry wolfy. I dont mean to just drop off the face of the earth or ignore anyone, but I keep telling people this is how I am. When I get upset or sad or hurt I hide away. I have been this way my whole life and never had a reason to think anyone but my folks would protect me or help me. You have to give me time to adapt, cause this seems to be a slow process,
*hugs*