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You're welcome. c; I hope things get better for you.

Oh my love...These times are trying. Though they may be trying to hurt you, you can't let them do that. Just ignore the cruel things they say to you. It'll be hard, I know, but you're better than them. You're family and you sincerely try your best and yet you get nothing but crap. *takes into arms* I promise, I'll make better for you as soon as I can. Until that time, don't let them hurt you. I just wish there was a way you could show them what they're doing to you. Its just sickening. I love you and can't stand to see you upset.

thank you... so much...hun ..

I'm so sorry Myyir....I'm so sorry you deserve better hun....thats terrible and I just wish I could help you somehow....I can only imagine how you feel being pushed so hard. But even if others in your stupid apartment complex hate you....please try to find a smile in all the sadness knowing that people DO care for you here. We may not be next to you but were your friends all the same. *hugs tight* Again I'm sorry...

I wish I could leave here soon...butI have to wait for it to end... I'm glad I have people here who care.. Ill try to smile but I can't right now.. -hug-.. :[..

*hugs tight* I understand hun....just stay strong and we'll all stand here by you ok? Hehe...I'll be your stepping stood if I have to

best to get shit out sometimes. Shouldn't worry yourself too much about what people think, or try not to. I mean im not 100% like that but i try my best to not let peoples words affect me... hell i failed english class my senior year and had to take it up in summer school, and best i tried for was a D just to pass. Hell my father thinks i should be a military boy and live up to his name and he doesn't even know the real me, he assumes im still like the child he left 15 years ago, and that i can do anything i set my mind to? no i can't XD i cannot at all... don't try to make me who you want me to be and let me be me! Was able to tell my mom off with this 4 years ago. She finally respects my decision and im living a good life atm.
I could give less of a fuck if people hate me xD i have friends who like me and thats all i need. im not here to set an example to the world of who i am and be better then anyone. =3 but its okay since this is the way people like me... lol
i also don't get outside much xD but thats cause im lazy :P
i really hope you work things out and feel better though ): i really feel sad for you

I know.. I feel better getting it out yesterday.. It's hard not to think when your told almost everyday. I do want to be myself also.. I am afraid to tell them anything :/ Thats sorta like how my dad was when get got out. Ofcourse he never learned and went back in.. I do try to please others that is one thing that I do on my own but I get tired when they ask for more. I do have friend who like me I'm glad I have them without all my friend I probably would be the silent girl in the corner again..
I also have other reasons not to go out, Im trying to cheer up, things are better today, thank you.

your welcome... things will hopefully work out for ya :3

there is always fighting back... not like getting hosed and ending in the back of a beat up ford... more like telling them to F* off and then explaining, while telling them to shhh so you can explain the aforementioned Shut it.

I would but I'm afraid.. what do you mean by this.. "not like getting hosed and ending in the back of a beat up ford... " I have told my sister to and I've tried explaining but I always get yelled at either way..

it's based off some kids will show explosive and dangerous behavior JUST to mess with their parents. Like getting drunk at a party then knocked up by some tool in the back of a Ford pick up... or worse.

as for telling them to shut it. You will need to use that much. hell even giving a stern look with the "please wait" finger (not the middle one) is far more respectful. Yet still be polite, and talk in a firm, calm and slow voice telling them what your saying here.

Trust me a "balls out" speech will still get you int trouble but far less than crushing like a puppy the first minuet in. Speak your mind, be heard, knowing full well you may not survive and they will listen. and use hand movements to illustrate your point... it's like a puppet show and people like puppet shows.

*Pats*
I can kinda relate to some of that...

My parents were similar, I just had to get the best grades and shit, even thou 90 % of my class didn't even get VG (B) and 40-70 % of them failed at several or some subjects.
They constantly complained when I didn't get B or higher, if I got IG (E, I think that'd be) they went mad, and telling them that more then half the class also failed, that they didn't care about.

If I managed to get B++, they just said "Why didn't you work harder? You could have gotten an A!"
If I got an A they just said "See? That's how you should do it. Why don't you do like that more often?"
Never rewarded, just always punished, and they wonder why all their children have said "I never asked to be born"...

Erh, thou I shouldn't stand here rambling, this is your journal heh...
I can only wish you luck with things getting better...

Yeah :[.. you understand the grade stuff.. I understand why my grandmother wants me to get higher grades.. She doesn't want me to turn out like how mom was and dad is and how sister and brothers are. I use to be astraight A student, then it got harder but I still maintained good enough in my opinion, but always pushed to do harder.. Thanks for wishing me luck, i know i must endure it a bit longer..

I think what annoys me the most is this whole "What other people?" thing they do... on a test the whole class fails, they still whine on you despite no-one else making it.
They really just noticed them when they are better then you, then they go "Why can't you be more like Steve?"

I can relate to that.

My mum keeps going about how I shouldn't be happy with C's I should be aiming for A's.
I can aim for an A all I please but I'm never getting one. And the whole how you look thing? Yeah I know that as well, usually comes with the following:
"You should take pride in your appearance, you should care about how people see you."
Then my response is usually;
"I do care"
Then hers is:
"Then why do you look like such as scruffy bastard?"

I swear it really annoys me sometimes.

Everyone seems to be against you, and you never get rewarded fo anything you do, you just keep getting dagged back down. And from where i stand there was no need to apologise for venting on here, it's better to et it out somewhere were ther rsponses wont affect your life in too big a way.

That's the best I can say right now.

Yah :[.. I get A's here in some of the classes majority of them are around B's I'm absent alot from school, but i still get my grades done and don't have to go to adult school and extra class periods like sister and cousins had/have to I even get out of school everyday early at 12:25. I am told that but in a vulgar way.. It annoys me too..I try but yah:[.. I always apologize.. Its just something I've grown used to doing.. I'm glad tho I got it out. Thanks Saatchi. I appreciate it.

Thank you, thank you, I'm here all week.

But seriously, I'm happy to have helped.

I always find it easier to deal with knowing that your not the only one who's going through it.

And, chances are, I'll be here the next time you vent.